weedemon
enthusiast
I have crazy anxiety. and because I was meeting this girl yesterday I stopped vaping 36h in advance. ( I don't think she is down with mj and I wanted to bring my "A" game for the conversation too.) Well, my anxiety came into full effect and once again i couldn't eat and on top of that got diarrhea (this happens when my anxiety hits hard too). I lost 5 or 6 lbs in 2 days. I felt like I was so sick and weak feeling. I still went to work, but i felt like shit. I forced my self to eat, but the process of eating made me want to puke and it didn't matter how good whatever it was. Because of the anxiety It made my stomach not want to accept food it just wanted to puke it back up. I made it through my shift, but not 8 minutes after I got out of work, I have to quickly pull over on the side of the road, and i puked.
I got home and made myself eat again cause I had lost what I had managed to eat before.
The next day:
Leading up to the date I still felt just as anxious, if not more so!
Then on our date, I didn't feel anxious at all! we walked and talked, and It was CRAZY HOT OUT I felt like i was getting heat exhaustion because I'm still weak and malnourished from basically 2 days of starvation. I felt like my skin was super red and I was sweating lots. (I had a bottle of water with me though)
then we went out to dinner, I went to the bathroom and the anxiety about eating was back! Fuck no! this cant be happening! lol so I go out, and say because it's hot out I'm just gonna get an app and a salad. our food comes out, and I'm looking at the spring rolls I ordered and wondering how the hell I am ever going to eat them... so i just kept talking for a while while she had her soup. then she went to the bathroom. so this was my chance to test the waters. I take a bite and you know what? I can hardly swallow it. I know I'm going to struggle to keep it down. This should be delicious! wtf is wrong with me?! I love spring rolls! (both fresh and fried) but here I am fighting to eat it now... i move it to the side and say to myself lets hope the salad goes better!
She came back before I could try it. But I just slowly picked at it and came clean that I have anxiety problems. She was totally cool about it and I told her that I was having a really good time with her. (I was, she is the real deal so far, she's amazing!)
After our date was over, I felt the urge to puke because that salad and bite of spring roll was the most solid things I had eaten all day. My mouth started to salivate like crazy (you know when you body is trying to make you puke? A tip don't swallow that saliva. if you do it will just keep coming and you will hurl for sure!) so i couldn't pull over right away it was bust traffic. I was heaving just trying not to puke my mouth filling with saliva. once I got to the next stop sign I open the door and spit out the biggest mouthful of saliva ever! I quickly got my vape out and got a very mild buzz going. My stomach calmed within 20 min! I have felt fine again since! and I'm back to eating again! YAY!!!
I vape every day, and I think that's what keeps these anxiety attacks away. because when I abstain and they come, my body suffers!
but then again, I was abstaining because of a social stigma. I wonder what would have happened had i blazed earlier. would I have gone though all that? or would I have still been anxious, but maybe it would have been more tolerable? I didn't want to risk it. haha
I have been on dates where the girl was down with blazing, sometimes, not always the conversation suffered after. sometimes it gets even better too, but not something I want to risk on someone so interesting.
I got home and made myself eat again cause I had lost what I had managed to eat before.
The next day:
Leading up to the date I still felt just as anxious, if not more so!
Then on our date, I didn't feel anxious at all! we walked and talked, and It was CRAZY HOT OUT I felt like i was getting heat exhaustion because I'm still weak and malnourished from basically 2 days of starvation. I felt like my skin was super red and I was sweating lots. (I had a bottle of water with me though)
then we went out to dinner, I went to the bathroom and the anxiety about eating was back! Fuck no! this cant be happening! lol so I go out, and say because it's hot out I'm just gonna get an app and a salad. our food comes out, and I'm looking at the spring rolls I ordered and wondering how the hell I am ever going to eat them... so i just kept talking for a while while she had her soup. then she went to the bathroom. so this was my chance to test the waters. I take a bite and you know what? I can hardly swallow it. I know I'm going to struggle to keep it down. This should be delicious! wtf is wrong with me?! I love spring rolls! (both fresh and fried) but here I am fighting to eat it now... i move it to the side and say to myself lets hope the salad goes better!
She came back before I could try it. But I just slowly picked at it and came clean that I have anxiety problems. She was totally cool about it and I told her that I was having a really good time with her. (I was, she is the real deal so far, she's amazing!)
After our date was over, I felt the urge to puke because that salad and bite of spring roll was the most solid things I had eaten all day. My mouth started to salivate like crazy (you know when you body is trying to make you puke? A tip don't swallow that saliva. if you do it will just keep coming and you will hurl for sure!) so i couldn't pull over right away it was bust traffic. I was heaving just trying not to puke my mouth filling with saliva. once I got to the next stop sign I open the door and spit out the biggest mouthful of saliva ever! I quickly got my vape out and got a very mild buzz going. My stomach calmed within 20 min! I have felt fine again since! and I'm back to eating again! YAY!!!
I vape every day, and I think that's what keeps these anxiety attacks away. because when I abstain and they come, my body suffers!
but then again, I was abstaining because of a social stigma. I wonder what would have happened had i blazed earlier. would I have gone though all that? or would I have still been anxious, but maybe it would have been more tolerable? I didn't want to risk it. haha
I have been on dates where the girl was down with blazing, sometimes, not always the conversation suffered after. sometimes it gets even better too, but not something I want to risk on someone so interesting.