Nausea: The Monster
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Vitolo
Vaporist
How could I not try to support you.
You are an enthusiast in all that you do to the point of fanaticism. This trait, I am sure has had you take things to the extreme in the past. I admire that you delved into vapor as heavily as you did.. just an example of your total devotion to any "thing" you take on.
What has separated you from others in similar situations is that you were honest with us, and with yourself.
In the end, you did not blame weed... nor did you "fault" the pastime/habit of Vaporization... but rather, you zeroed in on your own frailty.
You are who I am here to support... He who does not put blame where it does not belong!
You are an enthusiast in all that you do to the point of fanaticism. This trait, I am sure has had you take things to the extreme in the past. I admire that you delved into vapor as heavily as you did.. just an example of your total devotion to any "thing" you take on.
What has separated you from others in similar situations is that you were honest with us, and with yourself.
In the end, you did not blame weed... nor did you "fault" the pastime/habit of Vaporization... but rather, you zeroed in on your own frailty.
You are who I am here to support... He who does not put blame where it does not belong!
Psychic
Psychic Medium/Vaporist
I'm new here and reading through some of the posts and want to say that the vapor community I am experiencing is so very encouraging and I am so pleased to be a part of it. It's wonderful to know there are people who are open to teach others and who truly care! I suffer from nausea and pain, my nausea from a protocol of vitamins, herbs and tinctures which is the alternative route I have chosen for me. Vaporization saves me from a lot of nausea, discomfort, as well as relaxes me. I look forward to reading, learning and making friends. Thank you so much for being here. May you all have a lovely day!
Psychic
Psychic Medium/Vaporist
Awww...thank you, Vito, you are very kind!
I'm the proud owner of vapes for years. What I use most in my collection: SSV, Rock Zaps,(for my metaphysical center), Toasty Top, MFLB (but have moved to the Iolite Classic in purple, as my vaporizer for the road.) I just took a ride upstate New York with a friend and the Iolite kept me in a great place to enjoy the day.
Happy Sunday and God bless,
I hope to be able to post more often as I love to commune with like-minded people.
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
I'm with you on the tears, right now. I was like you, though not as athletically accomplished, I played sports all growing up and worked out, my entire life. When my aortic dissection hit and I survived, I still thought I was invincible. I WAS ALIVE! I still look the same, pretty much act the same, though I have memory lapses and kind of space out occasionally. They know I had at least 2 strokes. 1 prior to my 13 hour surgery and one post. However the doctors told me, I could have had as many as "hundreds". Still, I was whole... at least I thought so and the way people treated me, confirmed my ridiculous belief.
I try to ignore my physical limitations. People look at me strange, when I try to follow the (several) doctor's advice, not to lift anything over 15 pounds. I've defied them many times. I've felt the twinges of pain I shouldn't, when I do. I get tired of doctor after doctor, either telling me, they don't know how to handle it, "this will be a learning experience"... or "dude, I can't believe you're sitting across from me, talking right now. You should be a corpse..." (paraphrasing, but that was the gist). I feel like I should be able to do more.
At least once a day, though usually several times... my vision will start to blur. I can't focus on things. Its like one eye, is fighting the other trying to, I dunno... take the lead? Oftentimes, its like I had rubbed my eyes for 5 minutes straight and I see those stars covering my vision. That's when its bad, because my vision starts to black out, from the corners. They're not sure what's causing it... but think the dissection of both my carotids (think of the tears as restrictive flaps) is causing decreased flow. Because I have to keep my BP below 110/70 (typically it runs 98/56)... the decreased pressure doesn't help, when the vision starts to go... but, then again, they think that might be part of the problem to. Basically, they don't know. They just know, that both my carotids, to the aorta, to the top of my heart, then continuing on the bottom side, to both my kidneys and branches off to the spine, are shredded. Future surgery puts me at a 10% chance of paralysis.
I get vertigo and periods of hhmmm... I guess you could call it "confusion", when I change elevation at all. Doesn't matter how fast I stand up... its gonna hit. I'm used to it, to the point, I throw my arms up and yell, "WHEE!" (kind of like a roller coaster). Might as well enjoy it, eh? It always hits, within seconds of standing up, so if I'm not being an idiot and instead actually paying attention, I'll give myself the time to adjust.
Yesterday however, things changed. I was walking into the VA for my weekly group session. I was at least 50' from my car. Vertigo would have come and gone, by now. Suddenly, its like... I wasn't there. Then I felt my foot hit and I couldn't even respond. I can't remember the last time, I fell and wasn't able to at least limit the damage by falling "correctly", kind of rolling into it. I went from standing upright to suddenly full-body crash to the ground. Today, it feels like someone walked up to me, hit me in the left thigh with a bat, someone else walked up behind me and hit me in the left kidney hard as they could. Then that bat took a couple swings at my ribs as I continued to get hit up my back, to my shoulder. Finally, as I crumpled to the ground... that invisible force, wrenched my neck, for good measure.
My plans for group session had changed. I was whisked off in a wheelchair to see a doctor. Side note: Funny, the clinic says they don't have emergency services. Oh yeah? Take a spill in front of one, some time. lol! During my visit, they asked me if I blacked out. I tried to cover... it was starting to sink in, with my ego. Reality was creeping up, fast. I said something lame, like "I wasn't there for a second, but I felt myself trip. It was just me being clumsy". My doctor got to read the reports for the first time, from the Vascular Surgeons. When they first saw my case (my surgery was outside the VA system), they jumped on it. I've had ultrasounds, MRIs, CT Scans w/ contrast, poked and prodded, I don't care to remember how much over the last 4 months. When my doctor started reading, I knew what it was. He grew silent. I told him, I knew what it said. I had already got copies of the reports. I do it, with all my medical stuff. I've read enough CT reports to have a basic understanding.
I was told yesterday, at 45 years old and appearing of sound mind and body, I need to start using a cane. Why? Because they can't trust my balance, or if I'll black out randomly. Hopefully, I can catch myself before I do the concrete faceplant again.
I don't claim to have your problems, Vito. I wouldn't want to be in your shoes, nor walk a mile in them. But, I can understand. I go from thanking God, to cursing him. I ask why I can't do the things I used to do. Fuck... why can't I just do a simple task, like opening a fucking stuck bottle/jar? I wonder every night when I go to bed, if I'll wake up and every morning, if I'll make it through the day.
When I went to get my MMJ card, the doctor just sat there kind of slack-jawed, listening to my story. He actually blessed me, when he handed me my paperwork. Like you, they can have it, when they pry it from my cold, dead fingers.
Sorry for rambling. Had to get it off my chest.
I try to ignore my physical limitations. People look at me strange, when I try to follow the (several) doctor's advice, not to lift anything over 15 pounds. I've defied them many times. I've felt the twinges of pain I shouldn't, when I do. I get tired of doctor after doctor, either telling me, they don't know how to handle it, "this will be a learning experience"... or "dude, I can't believe you're sitting across from me, talking right now. You should be a corpse..." (paraphrasing, but that was the gist). I feel like I should be able to do more.
At least once a day, though usually several times... my vision will start to blur. I can't focus on things. Its like one eye, is fighting the other trying to, I dunno... take the lead? Oftentimes, its like I had rubbed my eyes for 5 minutes straight and I see those stars covering my vision. That's when its bad, because my vision starts to black out, from the corners. They're not sure what's causing it... but think the dissection of both my carotids (think of the tears as restrictive flaps) is causing decreased flow. Because I have to keep my BP below 110/70 (typically it runs 98/56)... the decreased pressure doesn't help, when the vision starts to go... but, then again, they think that might be part of the problem to. Basically, they don't know. They just know, that both my carotids, to the aorta, to the top of my heart, then continuing on the bottom side, to both my kidneys and branches off to the spine, are shredded. Future surgery puts me at a 10% chance of paralysis.
I get vertigo and periods of hhmmm... I guess you could call it "confusion", when I change elevation at all. Doesn't matter how fast I stand up... its gonna hit. I'm used to it, to the point, I throw my arms up and yell, "WHEE!" (kind of like a roller coaster). Might as well enjoy it, eh? It always hits, within seconds of standing up, so if I'm not being an idiot and instead actually paying attention, I'll give myself the time to adjust.
Yesterday however, things changed. I was walking into the VA for my weekly group session. I was at least 50' from my car. Vertigo would have come and gone, by now. Suddenly, its like... I wasn't there. Then I felt my foot hit and I couldn't even respond. I can't remember the last time, I fell and wasn't able to at least limit the damage by falling "correctly", kind of rolling into it. I went from standing upright to suddenly full-body crash to the ground. Today, it feels like someone walked up to me, hit me in the left thigh with a bat, someone else walked up behind me and hit me in the left kidney hard as they could. Then that bat took a couple swings at my ribs as I continued to get hit up my back, to my shoulder. Finally, as I crumpled to the ground... that invisible force, wrenched my neck, for good measure.
My plans for group session had changed. I was whisked off in a wheelchair to see a doctor. Side note: Funny, the clinic says they don't have emergency services. Oh yeah? Take a spill in front of one, some time. lol! During my visit, they asked me if I blacked out. I tried to cover... it was starting to sink in, with my ego. Reality was creeping up, fast. I said something lame, like "I wasn't there for a second, but I felt myself trip. It was just me being clumsy". My doctor got to read the reports for the first time, from the Vascular Surgeons. When they first saw my case (my surgery was outside the VA system), they jumped on it. I've had ultrasounds, MRIs, CT Scans w/ contrast, poked and prodded, I don't care to remember how much over the last 4 months. When my doctor started reading, I knew what it was. He grew silent. I told him, I knew what it said. I had already got copies of the reports. I do it, with all my medical stuff. I've read enough CT reports to have a basic understanding.
I was told yesterday, at 45 years old and appearing of sound mind and body, I need to start using a cane. Why? Because they can't trust my balance, or if I'll black out randomly. Hopefully, I can catch myself before I do the concrete faceplant again.
I don't claim to have your problems, Vito. I wouldn't want to be in your shoes, nor walk a mile in them. But, I can understand. I go from thanking God, to cursing him. I ask why I can't do the things I used to do. Fuck... why can't I just do a simple task, like opening a fucking stuck bottle/jar? I wonder every night when I go to bed, if I'll wake up and every morning, if I'll make it through the day.
When I went to get my MMJ card, the doctor just sat there kind of slack-jawed, listening to my story. He actually blessed me, when he handed me my paperwork. Like you, they can have it, when they pry it from my cold, dead fingers.
Sorry for rambling. Had to get it off my chest.
Vitolo
Vaporist
BigDaddyVapor, you da man.
I would like to give you an extra special thanks.. for bringing this truth before us.
You shared... and just through cosmic universal ripples... your story is now on the wings of the wind.
others hear the wind, and they will gain faith and strength from the description of your time of despair.
Testing a new digital Volcano today... This bags for you!
I would like to give you an extra special thanks.. for bringing this truth before us.
You shared... and just through cosmic universal ripples... your story is now on the wings of the wind.
others hear the wind, and they will gain faith and strength from the description of your time of despair.
Testing a new digital Volcano today... This bags for you!
Abysmal Vapor
Supersniffer 2000 - robot fart detection device
BigDaddyVapor ! I am sending you all my positive energy and wish you strength and best of luck.
Sometimes life kicks as mule.. and at some point you will eventually get too many kicks.. but we should always go on cuz that is the essence of being alive part of life.
(Excuse my english if it sounds funny but i try to express my thoughts at best without getting lost in translation
Sometimes life kicks as mule.. and at some point you will eventually get too many kicks.. but we should always go on cuz that is the essence of being alive part of life.
(Excuse my english if it sounds funny but i try to express my thoughts at best without getting lost in translation
Quetzalcoatl
DEADY GUERRERO/DIRT COBAIN/GEORGE KUSH
Oh man... This one's for you.
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
Thanks for the wishes and sentiments. I do appreciate them.
Well, wonderful news from the Vascular Surgeons at the VA yesterday (they're all UCLA staff, so not slouches). They discussed my case earlier in their weekly conference Friday. One said, he hadn't ever seen anything like it. Another said he couldn't believe I was alive and they all noted, that sometimes really shitty things happen to people... and well, I ended up being one of them.
No hope of any corrective surgery, unless further dissection presents itself. Unfortunately further dissection, will pretty much be my ticket punch.
Oh and I found out the dissection travels further than I thought. Stops just above the femoral artery in my right leg.
Well, wonderful news from the Vascular Surgeons at the VA yesterday (they're all UCLA staff, so not slouches). They discussed my case earlier in their weekly conference Friday. One said, he hadn't ever seen anything like it. Another said he couldn't believe I was alive and they all noted, that sometimes really shitty things happen to people... and well, I ended up being one of them.
No hope of any corrective surgery, unless further dissection presents itself. Unfortunately further dissection, will pretty much be my ticket punch.
Oh and I found out the dissection travels further than I thought. Stops just above the femoral artery in my right leg.
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
I was being sarcastic on the "wonderful". 
It wasn't a good news day.
It wasn't a good news day.
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
Just making sure.
Read it back to myself and seemed kind of an odd way, for me to say it.
Been a rough few weeks, as I've been having some whacky pains/aches. The fall and then the surprise appointment with the surgeons (I found out about the Friday appointment on Tuesday) Plus, I have my SS hearing next Wednesday. Been real tempting to just medicate myself to numbness, but I don't really like that feeling...
Not all bad. Unlike my deposition, for my work comp, where I could NOT control my blood pressure for almost a month, leading up to this... my BP has been pretty rock solid. Even after the shock of my fall, while elevated, 110/70 is still doable.
By the way. Never meant to hijack your thread. Your post, Vito... was just kind of a huge breath for me. So much of it, I could hear myself in your words. Of course, different symptoms, but I could feel that @#$%ing roller coaster.
Read it back to myself and seemed kind of an odd way, for me to say it.
Been a rough few weeks, as I've been having some whacky pains/aches. The fall and then the surprise appointment with the surgeons (I found out about the Friday appointment on Tuesday) Plus, I have my SS hearing next Wednesday. Been real tempting to just medicate myself to numbness, but I don't really like that feeling...
Not all bad. Unlike my deposition, for my work comp, where I could NOT control my blood pressure for almost a month, leading up to this... my BP has been pretty rock solid. Even after the shock of my fall, while elevated, 110/70 is still doable.
By the way. Never meant to hijack your thread. Your post, Vito... was just kind of a huge breath for me. So much of it, I could hear myself in your words. Of course, different symptoms, but I could feel that @#$%ing roller coaster.
Quetzalcoatl
DEADY GUERRERO/DIRT COBAIN/GEORGE KUSH
Nothin' wrong with that... I'd say it's healthier than how I numb myself :/ Got an unexpected $20 which will go towards getting my opiates refilled tomorrow.
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
Ugh, I spent 3 months on Oxycontin after my surgery. I asked the surgeon to take me off after a month, he laughed. I insisted and he said, "not a god idea, but I can't make you take it". I understood where he was coming from, after it started to clear out of my system.
I promptly went back on the Oxy and took whatever the heck he prescribed me, after that point.
I promptly went back on the Oxy and took whatever the heck he prescribed me, after that point.
Quetzalcoatl
DEADY GUERRERO/DIRT COBAIN/GEORGE KUSH
Me too, had a few surgeries and some other stuff done, 6 days straight of IV Dilaudid and Percocets, three separate times. Good thing I only get it at the hospital, hahaha.
I've actually gone a whole 9 days now since I've taken any tramadol for my joint pain, partly because I ran out, but for some reason my vape seems more efficient now? Indicas in there are doing a good job keeping my pain down enough.
I've actually gone a whole 9 days now since I've taken any tramadol for my joint pain, partly because I ran out, but for some reason my vape seems more efficient now? Indicas in there are doing a good job keeping my pain down enough.
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
I still have to take Tramadol 2x daily. MMJ doesn't help with stabbing pains, typically in my bones... it only seems to help with muscle pain. Mine's the time release, so it doesn't really pack a punch.
t-dub
Vapor Sloth
One thing about human beings and pain is that we perceive pain as both a physical sensation AND as an emotion. Animals only have the physical part. Because pain is both a sensation and emotion, cannabis can be uniquely effective in easing a wide variety of pains, physically and mentally, especially when you consider strain selection and variable vape temps . . .
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
Its such a comfort to have it right there and ready in seconds (the MFLB). Glad your day got off to a better start, after medicating.
Vicki
Herbal Alchemist
Thanks.
I have been having more nausea than usual lately. That's one of the things I love so much about the MFLB. When I'm sick like that, I can get almost instant relief. IMHO, it should be a must vaporizer for MMJ patients, or people just like me.
Quetzalcoatl
DEADY GUERRERO/DIRT COBAIN/GEORGE KUSH
I always have two batteries charged and my box with a new trench under my spare pillowThanks.
BigDaddyVapor
@BigDogJunction
I always have two batteries charged and my box with a new trench under my spare pillow
Q, wouldn't surprise me, if you had MFLB's stashed in every room in the house and you'd still carry one in your pocket.
