Healing is a process and can't be rushed and there are few if any short cuts, you could eat your weight in calcium and still have a broken leg. We're never more vulnerable than when we give ourselves and never more shattered than when someone close to us rejects us. Fuck you to being vulnerable and repeating the cycle, solitude is preferable to trying to be with someone who doesn't get you. Focus on what makes you happy and enjoy, be selfish and revel in your own desires and wants, in doing so you may meet a more like minded person. Fuck you to any sort of pain perceived or tangible. But the best advice I can give is adopt a pet from your local shelter, it's all the love and joy of a child without any of the worries of saving for college lol a pet will love you on your good days and bad days regardless and unconditionally.Fuck stages of grief... Cant i just get teleported to FUCK YOU!