Big changes in my life since I started this post two years and a half ago…. All for good, and, without any doubt, cannabis made me realize a lot of things and have helped through the way.
I’ll tell you the story soon
Well, I wanna share with you my story, since I would really love to hear your inputs. Remember, we come from here:
I've turned 40 recently, have couple kids under 10 and I have a job in a multinational company where I'm a regional manager.
Said that, I consider my life pretty regular, work like a horse the whole weeks and then enjoy weekends wirh friends and family.
I started vaping only weekends, which I still do and enjoy, but one monday, after a very stressfully day, I gave myself a treat and vaping like 0.15gr from 19 to 21h, listening to some records, just before watch some tv and go to bed. It made my day, was very relaxing and really enjoyed that. I did same thing next monday, was like a treat or relief from work.
Short story, now I vape almost every monday, even some tuesdays or wednesday if the day has been really bad, and I don't know why, but I feel a little bad about it, is like "man, you are vaping weed more days than you are not!". After a hard day at work, I use to workout or do some running and then, as a treat, I put a vinyl in my audio system, vap about 0.10gr and enjoy the relax.
Guess it is becoming an habit, and I've always heard about "stoners that vape everyday", but for me is just a moment of the day for me that I really enjoy. I can't see any harm on it, though I still feel like I'm maybe abusing about vaping or using weed.
I know, as long as it doesn't interfere with my job, family or motivations, it is OK....but I'd like to hear your thoughts. Sometimes, while I'm at work, I'm thinking about that hour at home that I'll have listening to music and vaping, really looking forward to that moment.....and maybe that is not so good since it is creating an habit or need.
It has been 3 years….. and my life has completely changed since that. For better.
Still happily married, kids are almost reaching adolescence (at least the older one, 13 years already…) but I resigned and quit my job after 20 years of career. I just couldn’t take it any more. As I told you, I had a very well paid but unfulfilling job with a nice position as regional manager in a multinational corporation. One of these “dream jobs” for people, that is really more of a nightmare you can’t scape. You make a lot of money, you are respected and have a big status…. But you feel trapped in something that makes you miserable everyday, and can’t quit.
I‘m living the dream that every colleague at work use to fantasize about. Tell the system to fuck off and start my own company doing something that I really love and that, believe it or not (sometimes I still don’t believe it myself) I’m making more money than ever.
Cannabis has helped me to get to the goal by taking anxiety down, giving me ideas while vaping / meditate (I keep a notebook near to write down most of the ideas that come to my mind when vaping, and believe it or not most are really good!) and dealing with the whole process. Is not easy to leave a very well paid stable job that provides for your family, but I knew I could do better and I wasn’t happy at all, so, right decision for me.
I remember when Cannabis was just a scape from the shit at work, now is something I enjoy and have incorporated to my life.
I don’t use to vape everyday, but I could do it if I want. I like to do it leaving at least a day between sessions. Sometimes I vape 3 days in a row, sometimes I spend 5 or more days without vaping. Sometimes I vape the whole week. As long as it doesn’t interfere with my daily chores and work, is OK. I never vape twice a day, just a session, I chose the right moment to enjoy it and use it as a treat.
I don’t feel guilty anymore. Guess, as some of you have said, that as long as you are responsible, do what you have to do and doesn’t interfere with other things, is OK to vape whenever you feel up to and enjoy the benefits.
For me, the benefits are clear:
- I use to think/behave like my brain is running at 6000rpm…. Cannabis makes me a more relaxed person.
- It gives me a lot of inspiration for ideas, and perspective about the problems
- Is a moment of joy for me, that I usually spend listening to music, meditating, playing an instrument, writing, or just having a nice time at the beach.
Of course, I’m careful and try not to create a bad habit, but I don’t feel guilty about vaping weekdays, or weekend, or whatever. Guess we use to demonize the Cannabis too much. Smoking or drinking is way worse than this “habit” of mine.
And, thought I’m not 100% sure, and I can’t recommend anyone to do anything, I guess Cannabis has helped me to get where I am now.
Happy.
Aint that the way.
