I'm dealing with an issue maybe some of you can relate to, maybe not. I thought about this a lot wether or not to talk about it. I've heard several of you talk about hard drugs and you're still alive so that gives me hope. Maybe this can help others.
My beautiful boy of 29 yrs old is addicted to pain pills, hard core. I'm told he is smoking them. I was told he was taking 20 pills a day. He lost his job last September his girlfriend broke up with him. I'm told she was smoking pain pills too.
He had some old friends that wanted to help him, pre pain pill days, good friends. The friends knew he was addicted. They lived 1200 miles away. He stayed with them for 3 weeks and told me that he would come back clean from the pills. He came back and has been staying with me. He has been riding a bicycle to get around. Some nights he doesn't get home until 2 or 3 AM.
I have a couple of months off from work and had planned to devote a lot of time and energy to help him. He doesn't have a car anymore because he wrecked it. He had gotten a DUI. I helped him with the lawyer fees, court costs, insurance etc.
I thought he had stopped the pain pills. I have been noticing some expensive things missing. I had a large amount of cash hidden away for emergencies, some money had been taken, quite a bit. I told him that cannabis would be a better alternative for him. I gave him some cannabis to use. I hoped it would help some of his anxiety. I noticed a large amount missing. He probably sold some to buy pills. I asked my son about it. He denied having taken anymore than I had given him. He has been gone for a few days. He won't text or call me, even though I've been trying to get a hold of him. I know he must be back to smoking pain pills.
I told him I would take him around town to look for work. He had a regular job for 10 years, he hardly ever missed a day. He seems unmotivated to look for work. There's a lot of depression I'm sure going on. I will continue to get him to go to rehab. I've tried before. That's when he decided to stay with his friends from out of state.
I know it's the need for the drug making him steal from me. I've forked out so much money over the last year. I feel so sad that I can't continue to let him live here. I've found bits of tin foil hidden under a dresser in his room. I know they smoke the pills off the foil. My house that I own could burn down in the middle of the night for all I know. I know it's entirely up to him to seek out help. I know I can't do it for him.
It breaks my heart, but I can't take the stress and anxiety of having him live here with me. I'm going to tell him he needs to live elsewhere. I'm going to get a locksmith and have the locks changed.
It's been such a nice diversion for me to chat on FC. Sometimes I can forget about the more difficult things in life.