verdampersweats
Well-Known Member
@Alexis
I remember you posting about the rituals of emtptying your lungs and you are right about it being irrational but ocd is that. Im not ocd about germs and without being high and mighty i simply attained extremely nigh on impossible hygeine standards for everything. Everythings wiped that i own no one gets entry to the house either so i guess ive mentally fortified myself in my castle. And ive developed detactched emotions and oponions of other humans because of this. So i cant let anyone touch my holy items in a way once they are all in a state of.perfection which everything is and is kept like that. And if i dont do this.everything seems wrong and worthless like a Herborizer Ti to me new would be wiped iso bathed and be one of these items. And when its taken away in the raid by someone dirty it.becomes dirty and worthless i would.mentally be blackmailed and tortured until i sold it and got a brand new one. And ive found weed does nothing about these thoughts and opinions.
I would not mind if they said ok we will work around your ocd but they just put the door in... and thats the dangerous part where ive told others i think ill be shot defending myself and thats not paranoia because i wont accept a caution or attend court because then i get a travel ban to America and its my dream to move there one day and get married!
Im sorry that went ott man as you can see its all mental i never actually had this prior to this event i was normal. But im lucky too as i do not get sick unlike you so i should count myself lucky. And yes i will be getting the Digi Ti but first i have to get a LED or 315w ceramic setup.
I remember you posting about the rituals of emtptying your lungs and you are right about it being irrational but ocd is that. Im not ocd about germs and without being high and mighty i simply attained extremely nigh on impossible hygeine standards for everything. Everythings wiped that i own no one gets entry to the house either so i guess ive mentally fortified myself in my castle. And ive developed detactched emotions and oponions of other humans because of this. So i cant let anyone touch my holy items in a way once they are all in a state of.perfection which everything is and is kept like that. And if i dont do this.everything seems wrong and worthless like a Herborizer Ti to me new would be wiped iso bathed and be one of these items. And when its taken away in the raid by someone dirty it.becomes dirty and worthless i would.mentally be blackmailed and tortured until i sold it and got a brand new one. And ive found weed does nothing about these thoughts and opinions.
I would not mind if they said ok we will work around your ocd but they just put the door in... and thats the dangerous part where ive told others i think ill be shot defending myself and thats not paranoia because i wont accept a caution or attend court because then i get a travel ban to America and its my dream to move there one day and get married!
Im sorry that went ott man as you can see its all mental i never actually had this prior to this event i was normal. But im lucky too as i do not get sick unlike you so i should count myself lucky. And yes i will be getting the Digi Ti but first i have to get a LED or 315w ceramic setup.