Asperger's Syndrome & MMJ

[DDave]

Since I did that test (and mind you; i've done other similar tests before that have led me to question my mental state in an inwardly non-constructive way) but since I did this test it got me thinking, and I have had it hanging over me at home and work and I was worries that I was undiagnosed with something that may provide insight into myself or help explain a few things about my character and how I operate / my shortcomings, but I just had a nice chat with my partner and she told me that it doesnt matter and that she loves me anyway.

Sometimes it takes something loving like that to make you realise that it doesn't matter anyway (however interesting and intriguing it may be!)

Reminds me of the TV show Derek (which I recommend that you ALL watch ASAP)




Nice sentiment

This is a great web page. Hope this helps!

http://www.aane.org/about_asperger_syndrome/asperger_syndrome_diagnosis_adults.html

Good basics and common responses to finding out you may have AS (see below)
Common responses to this information may include:

• RELIEF: “I’ve always known there was something different about me!”
• ANGER: “How come no one ever told me before? I’ve lost so much time and opportunity not knowing!”
• DENIAL: “I don’t have that.”
• TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE: “If that’s me, it’s you, too!” (or other family members)
  
  
  

 

[farscaper]

here, analyze this a bit. I dont quite know what it means so... you tell me.

Thank you for filling out this questionnaire.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 182 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 31 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)

I made a fucking D!

so today I was in a lot less pain... I have an abscess on my jaw and have been combating it with garlic... I digress... I got my oil on last night and good sleep after several nights of sleeplessness... woke up a d got my oil on again so I have a head full of cannabis and todays results show a very interesting change.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 120 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 88 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits

soooooo... cannabis helps me be more like "adjusted"

if faced with the knoledge that cannabis helps you... and you had a child who was autistic....

really makes current politics even more infuriating.

 

[Snappo]

so today I was in a lot less pain... I have an abscess on my jaw and have been combating it with garlic... I digress... I got my oil on last night and good sleep after several nights of sleeplessness... woke up a d got my oil on again so I have a head full of cannabis and todays results show a very interesting change.

Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 120 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 88 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits

soooooo... cannabis helps me be more like "adjusted"

if faced with the knoledge that cannabis helps you... and you had a child who was autistic....

really makes current politics even more infuriating.

AGREED! When on cannabis, a switch flips in my brain and I'm a different human being, inwardly, and outwardly towards others. It feels genuine to me i.e., not pretentious or self deluding - as if I've unlocked a door that held this "other me" inside. Wish I could keep that door unlocked and be free to go from room-to-room without cannabis, but that's just not the way my brain works - so, then, I simply use the key should I choose to.

 

[farscaper]

actually studies have found that autistic brains have deficiency in the endocannabinoid system that is filled and stimilated by use of cannabinoids.

I remember trying to explain this to a "stoner friend" and they were baffled by the idea there is a whole system in the body naturally producing cannabinoids and effects in the body...

kinda flys in the face of sober and stoner folks alike the idea that addictive cravings could actually be derrived not from desire but rather a natural deficiency in said chemicals.

most laugh it off as justification... so I dont discuss my ideas much...

my wife always said... I dont need it.. (she was referring to herself) im just naturally high I guess... well many years later... studies are starting to prove... she might be right!

 

[Radio]

This is a great web page. Hope this helps!

http://www.aane.org/about_asperger_syndrome/asperger_syndrome_diagnosis_adults.html

Good basics and common responses to finding out you may have AS (see below)
Common responses to this information may include:

• RELIEF: “I’ve always known there was something different about me!”
• ANGER: “How come no one ever told me before? I’ve lost so much time and opportunity not knowing!”
• DENIAL: “I don’t have that.”
• TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE: “If that’s me, it’s you, too!” (or other family members)
  
  

Thanks DDave. I thought all of those things at first. I am embracing of my aspie-traits as they have always given me an amazing uniqueness to how I perceive myself and how I operate and interpret this wonderful world.
When I can comfortably aquire good strains of MJ on a regular and consistent basis, i'll be comfortable to medicate and lessen some of the social anxiety, incessant thinking and lack-of-empathy issues that I struggle with but in the meantime, viva la vida.

 

[nopartofme]

actually studies have found that autistic brains have deficiency in the endocannabinoid system that is filled and stimilated by use of cannabinoids.

This is fascinating, and I hadn't heard about it before. For anyone else interested, I found this study:

http://www.cell.com/neuron/abstract/S0896-6273(13)00225-0

The full text is available free.

 

[grokit]

Okay I took the long quiz, seems to make sense.
I'm childhood diagnosed adhd that is now untreated adult add.
I have a (half) sibling that's more on the aspie side, that's where the tiptoe thing came from.

"Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 120 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 104 of 200
You seem to have both neurodiverse and neurotypical traits"

Hmmm... mine seems a bit on the boring side, I'll try for more drama next time.

 

[Radio]

This is fascinating, and I hadn't heard about it before. For anyone else interested, I found this study:

http://www.cell.com/neuron/abstract/S0896-6273(13)00225-0

The full text is available free.

THAT is some technical stuff... Didn't understand a word of it

 

[farscaper]

THAT is some technical stuff... Didn't understand a word of it

basically... in a study with mice they found that there is a required ammount of cannabinoid synaptic activity required for "normal" behavior. when lacking this stimulus you get... autism....

I find it wholly fascinating... I actually hypothesize that the prolonged prohibition of cannabis is why there has been such a spike in autism prevalence.

again... another view I keep quiet about.

 

[Enchantre]

Third time's the charm? Well, here I've tried one more time in order to get an average-ish look.

@DDave , at your leisure, if you would like, please share your thoughts...

P.S. I will gather the three into a montage...

 

[Radio]

I love how DDave is the appointed king of aspiestrology.

 

[DDave]

@Enchantre , @farscaper , @Deja Vu (sorry if I missed anyone! On a cell phone browser, limits my ability to fully use FC).

I owe you a read and intend to do so. The road's a bit rough for me at the moment and this would impact my perceptions negatively.

I will be back, when the road smoothens out a bit and looking forward to the tasks at hand!

Thanks,
DDave.

 

[Radio]

Peace out man, you're a legend. Always feel free to inbox me if you want to chat about anything or bounce some thoughts off me. I'll always push towards the positive for you when you stray far from that road, friend.

 

[farscaper]

@Enchantre , @farscaper , @Deja Vu (sorry if I missed anyone! On a cell phone browser, limits my ability to fully use FC).

I owe you a read and intend to do so. The road's a bit rough for me at the moment and this would impact my perceptions negatively.

I will be back, when the road smoothens out a bit and looking forward to the tasks at hand!

Thanks,
DDave.

you owe us nothing bro! we just like talking to you and greatly respect your opinion. You take any amount of time necessary to do whatever you need to do. we will no doubt be waiting right here for you.

peace and be well.

 

[lwien]

So I'm putting this video here (don't know if any of you have seen this yet). I'm putting it here not because Graves Disease, depression or addiction has anything to do with Aspergers , but because I think most of you guys can relate to this on a very basic level simply because of the day to day things you may have to deal with.

So here’s a video of Chandelier by Sia. The dancer is 11 year old Maddie Ziegler.

It’s the story of a party girl (which happens to be Sia herself) who suffers from Graves Disease and has bouts of serious depression, who ends up self medicating with alcohol and opiates and then falls into an even deeper depression from addiction and alcoholism and seriously contemplates suicide by hanging herself (portrayed by Maddie when she wraps herself in those curtains).

She (Maddie) was interviewed and she said that this dance was really out of the box for her being that she is very technically orientated but the choreographer told her to forget about technique and just to feel the music and let it flow through her as she interprets the lyrics.

Haunting to say the least in witnessing the pain and frustration of physical disease, mental illness and addiction while at the same time witnessing the unbelievable talent of a very young dancer being able to bring these emotions to life.

The feeling of the frustration of wanting to break out of her cage of afflictions and fly is just so real and the fact that an 11 year old could convey this so convincingly through dance, to me, is pretty astounding.

Expand and watch it in fullscreen.

Did you shed a tear when watching this? I did.

 

[Snappo]

So I'm putting this video here (don't know if any of you have seen this yet). I'm putting it here not because Graves Disease, depression or addiction has anything to do with Aspergers , but because I think most of you guys can relate to this on a very basic level simply because of the day to day things you may have to deal with.

So here’s a video of Chandelier by Sia. The dancer is 11 year old Maddie Ziegler.

It’s the story of a party girl who suffers from bouts of serious depression and Graves Disease who ends up self medicating with alcohol and opiates and then falls into an even deeper depression from addiction and alcoholism and serious contemplates suicide by hanging herself (portrayed by Maddie when she wraps herself in those curtains).

She (Maddie) was interviewed and she said that this dance was really out of the box for her being that she is very technically orientated but the choreographer told her to forget about technique and just to feel the music and let it flow through her as she interprets the lyrics.

Haunting to say the least in witnessing the pain of physical disease, mental illness and addiction while at the same time witnessing the unbelievable talent of a very young dancer being able to bring these emotions to life.

Expand and watch it in fullscreen.

Did you shed a tear when watching this? I did.

She's absolutely angelic! My heart went into my throat and tears threatened to well up! Thanks for that beautiful albeit tragic slice of life!

 

[Radio]

So I'm putting this video here (don't know if any of you have seen this yet). I'm putting it here not because Graves Disease, depression or addiction has anything to do with Aspergers , but because I think most of you guys can relate to this on a very basic level simply because of the day to day things you may have to deal with.

So here’s a video of Chandelier by Sia. The dancer is 11 year old Maddie Ziegler.

It’s the story of a party girl (which happens to be Sia herself) who suffers from Graves Disease and has bouts of serious depression, who ends up self medicating with alcohol and opiates and then falls into an even deeper depression from addiction and alcoholism and seriously contemplates suicide by hanging herself (portrayed by Maddie when she wraps herself in those curtains).

She (Maddie) was interviewed and she said that this dance was really out of the box for her being that she is very technically orientated but the choreographer told her to forget about technique and just to feel the music and let it flow through her as she interprets the lyrics.

Haunting to say the least in witnessing the pain and frustration of physical disease, mental illness and addiction while at the same time witnessing the unbelievable talent of a very young dancer being able to bring these emotions to life.

The feeling of the frustration of wanting to break out of her cage of afflictions and fly is just so real and the fact that an 11 year old could convey this so convincingly through dance, to me, is pretty astounding.

Expand and watch it in fullscreen.

Did you shed a tear when watching this? I did.

That was deep. I love a good interpretive emotional dance!
Thom Yorke does an amazing one to his own lyrics in Lotus Flower. Such a passionate and raw dance. This is a video that never fails to intrigue my friends when I put it on. They go into a trance of admiration and appreciation

 

[Enchantre]

you owe us nothing bro! we just like talking to you and greatly respect your opinion. You take any amount of time necessary to do whatever you need to do. we will no doubt be waiting right here for you.

peace and be well.

Exactly. @DDave I did mean only at your convenience, IF you want to.

I know you got stuff IRL to deal with... like us all, bro.

 

[Radio]

This is a great web page. Hope this helps!

http://www.aane.org/about_asperger_syndrome/asperger_syndrome_diagnosis_adults.html

Good basics and common responses to finding out you may have AS (see below)
Common responses to this information may include:

• RELIEF: “I’ve always known there was something different about me!”
• ANGER: “How come no one ever told me before? I’ve lost so much time and opportunity not knowing!”
• DENIAL: “I don’t have that.”
• TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE: “If that’s me, it’s you, too!” (or other family members)
  

By the way DDave, I read that whole page finally, very helpful. I don't if I have AS (I hate saying that I, or anyone else has ANYTHING, but you know what I mean) but I may seek a professional diagnosis just for peace of mind. If so, I will be able to chat to other aspies and discuss / open up about some aspects of my personality that only an aspie would understand or be able to understand which would be very rewarding, and if I am not diagnosed but instead advised that I simply share some traits of AS but do not have it to the extent or extremity of those who would commonly be diagnosed with AS with more certainty, then I will use the insight I do have to continue studying and understanding it more. I hope to one day get into disabled care and start support groups and programs for children with learning difficulties, and maybe even provide a day-care of preschool program with my partner (who is a qualified childcare worker) for children with mental disabilities (another term I fucking HATE, but you get what I mean. Can't think of another way to say it due to conditioning by media which further isolates these people and bunches them into a 'disabled' label. Ugh..

anyway, thanks dave. Good stuff! We'll see how it goes. Onward in the pursuit of pure compassion and understanding to all living souls

 

[Snappo]

By the way DDave, I read that whole page finally, very helpful. I don't if I have AS (I hate saying that I, or anyone else has ANYTHING, but you know what I mean) but I may seek a professional diagnosis just for peace of mind. If so, I will be able to chat to other aspies and discuss / open up about some aspects of my personality that only an aspie would understand or be able to understand which would be very rewarding, and if I am not diagnosed but instead advised that I simply share some traits of AS but do not have it to the extent or extremity of those who would commonly be diagnosed with AS with more certainty, then I will use the insight I do have to continue studying and understanding it more. I hope to one day get into disabled care and start support groups and programs for children with learning difficulties, and maybe even provide a day-care of preschool program with my partner (who is a qualified childcare worker) for children with mental disabilities (another term I fucking HATE, but you get what I mean. Can't think of another way to say it due to conditioning by media which further isolates these people and bunches them into a 'disabled' label. Ugh..

anyway, thanks dave. Good stuff! We'll see how it goes. Onward in the pursuit of pure compassion and understanding to all living souls

@Deja Vu! I like your way of thinking about society's misguided term "disabled". Truth is, it is society that is disabled from being "able" to accept diversity in all it's unique, wonderful, and challenging variety. Thanks for being one of the few among us who understand this!

 

[Enchantre]

My three quizzes. I can see that, while my social/attachment level varies, I'm still pretty solid on the AS side of things for how I communicate and see the world:

 

[farscaper]

sorry, I just need to drop a thought that... soneone can relate with...

I hate feeling like I do right now...
I woke up... in a terrible frame of mind.... and continued... to make it worse...
knowing I have... trouble I felt the need to medicate...

I was then awash with even more ... emotion? over the fact that... I could ruin my whole family and life over that which makes me feel... normal?

I get so mad... I just wanna change the world... I want to... feel diffrent? not as much?
I wish I could relate more to my family... but its only after ive ranted that I get the joy of seeing my own destruction...

and how does one make up for being... one self?

if only I could be... not.

not would be fine...

becuase not is not... here.

find peace...







im trying.

 

[Snappo]

sorry, I just need to drop a thought that... soneone can relate with...

I hate feeling like I do right now...
I woke up... in a terrible frame of mind.... and continued... to make it worse...
knowing I have... trouble I felt the need to medicate...

I was then awash with even more ... emotion? over the fact that... I could ruin my whole family and life over that which makes me feel... normal?

I get so mad... I just wanna change the world... I want to... feel diffrent? not as much?
I wish I could relate more to my family... but its only after ive ranted that I get the joy of seeing my own destruction...

and how does one make up for being... one self?

if only I could be... not.

not would be fine...

becuase not is not... here.

find peace...







im trying.

When we first & only seek justification and validation through the eyes of others, we've lost it. First find it from within, confirmation will then follow from others. If it doesn't, it is still in effect within. Of course, others can show us the errors of our ways, so we should always be open to change and course corrections. This should not come about by ones own insecurity or through the bullying of others.

 

[farscaper]

uplifting words from @Snappo I so do cherish the people here.

and thank you @imasinner for private words of motivation.

the most difficult thing in life is relating to two selves.

the goal is to unite the halves and create a whole.

some times in life you need glue.

you guys are awesome.

 

[CarolKing]

Snappo has some very wise words of wisdom.
You can only work on you. You cannot change the attitudes of others and what they think.
If cannabis helps you, don't feel quilt about it.

Take care and love yourself my friend.