This is basically what happens when I vape up before taking a shower. I get it in my mind that I'm trying to explain certain things to people like, say, how a vaporizer works in general, or different methods of actions of various drugs and why they cause side effects, to generally arguing with myself.
I'm a little older than you and have gone through a lot of tests, both mental and physical, and I'm fine. If there's no family history of it, then there isn't much to be worried about IMO.
I think everyone talks to themselves and does that kind of stuff, it's just got a weird stigma attached to it so not a lot of people like to talk about it.
Yeah, I'm probably just making a big thing out of nothing, the fact I keep thinking about it probably just means I'm being paranoid. I'll see something out of the corner of my eye and I'll start to think that I'm hallucinating, which thinking about it now, is pretty ridiculous.
well, of all the drugs and things you could consume while, cannabis may be the safest imo.
But completely isolating yourself is not a good idead, you will get insane.
Yeah, after 2 years of little communication with other people being more than just texts I'm sick of it.
I've decided to turn one of my spare rooms in to a place me and the few friends I'm still good with can come down and relax, talk, get high, watch TV, play video games and all that sort stuff.
Until I can get that done I think I'll just try to start talking to people over the internet more or something, maybe just talk to people on a games console or something.
Pot can trigger and/or worsen latent mental illness in some folks. So no, it won't cause mental illness, but it can awaken something that is already there. That is a risk with any mind altering drug natural or not. Same goes for alcohol.
As to talking to yourself...lots of people talk to themselves. The way you are worrying about it though, leads me to believe you are a bit of an anxious person?
Yeah, I've always been pretty anxious, those mental illness thoughts tend to go away once I've used cannabis though, I start to feel all around more relaxed. If that's because of the actual cannabis or because it focuses my mind on other things I don't know.
What is it about a shower and getting in your own head? That is where is happens to me by far the most. It also seems to be where I come up with my grandest plans that don't get followed through on.
Anything to do with being totally alone in bathroom, weather I'm in the shower, brushing my teeth or... doing something else, I always talk to myself, get inside my own head and just imagine things. I don't know why.
Also, I found this while looking up Schizophrenia "Lack of insight (called anosognosia). Those who are developing schizophrenia are unaware that they are becoming sick. The part of their brain that should recognize that something is wrong is damaged by the disease."
So by thinking that I'm becoming schizophrenic is that proof that I'm actually not? lol.