biohacker
H.R.E.A.M
Holy fuck i'm now tripping balls bro! So we both have been abusing for 10 years....I fucked combustion just over 10 years ago. I completely agree with a strong focus on diet, water, exercise, etc. and like you I am very anti-pharma.
Now for the biggest trip out. Every single time i've quit it's been like fucking heroin withdrawals, and sleep takes the biggest dive (non existent basically for a few weeks, 1-2hours/night)....basically I have to go through complete hell for minimum 1 month. I have to also say that i've been diagnosed with a mood disorder, adhd, and have some ptsd from working in the emerg services. I've been prescribed a few different meds, none of which i've ever taken though.
Until now.... I knew how shitty i'd feel today since it's day 1, however decided to finally cave and try some pharmas for the short term to get me through it. So, at 7:45am I forced myself (usually don't eat breakfast as I fast) to eat 2 eggs and a turkey sausage and some carrot juice, and I included a 18mg concerta as part of the breakfast. After about an hour and a bit, I felt "different".
This has been the BEST 1st day ever from withdrawing, as I had ZERO cravings or desire, and the focus and lack of a "racing mind" has been a godsend! Where have I been all of my life? lol I know i'll quickly reach tolerance and need double dose, so i'm treading carefully and probably won't take it everyday, and hoping to never take it again after i'm through with the next several weeks.
The only problem is, and not much different from vaping recently, I never really get drowsy enough to initiate and maintain sleep. I have some heavy meds for this, but still don't wanna take them yet as I fear dependence. I obviously have a very addictive personality!
Now for the biggest trip out. Every single time i've quit it's been like fucking heroin withdrawals, and sleep takes the biggest dive (non existent basically for a few weeks, 1-2hours/night)....basically I have to go through complete hell for minimum 1 month. I have to also say that i've been diagnosed with a mood disorder, adhd, and have some ptsd from working in the emerg services. I've been prescribed a few different meds, none of which i've ever taken though.
Until now.... I knew how shitty i'd feel today since it's day 1, however decided to finally cave and try some pharmas for the short term to get me through it. So, at 7:45am I forced myself (usually don't eat breakfast as I fast) to eat 2 eggs and a turkey sausage and some carrot juice, and I included a 18mg concerta as part of the breakfast. After about an hour and a bit, I felt "different".
This has been the BEST 1st day ever from withdrawing, as I had ZERO cravings or desire, and the focus and lack of a "racing mind" has been a godsend! Where have I been all of my life? lol I know i'll quickly reach tolerance and need double dose, so i'm treading carefully and probably won't take it everyday, and hoping to never take it again after i'm through with the next several weeks.
The only problem is, and not much different from vaping recently, I never really get drowsy enough to initiate and maintain sleep. I have some heavy meds for this, but still don't wanna take them yet as I fear dependence. I obviously have a very addictive personality!