God Bless all of you.
I am logging in from a friends home (but with one of my computers).
I worked for 10 years... while earning 771 a month... and because our house was paid for we managed well. I was able to support us on that much.
You all knew and loved Patty, my significant other.
I did too, and still do.
Once she was accepted for SSDI, her income became double mine, so we felt really wealthy, but Patty began to drink more, and bring home liquor in abundance.
One night before bed I thought she drank down a 24 ounce glass of water..... that is until she woke me from a nightmare at 4 a.m.She then began to scream at me, and wound up hitting me a number of times.
I looked in cupboard and found 1 inches left in an untouched liter if vodka.
She then lit 2 cigarettes in a row, in spite of the vets warnings, in the house in same room with our dogs.
I took each one and flushed them, reminding her of our promise that she would combust outside.
After this she threw a 2 gallon Pyrex mixing bowl that we used for Dogs water.
She then dialed 911 and said "have me arrested.
I grabbed the phone to intervene, but it was too late.
The police were on their way.
I told "my officer" in seclusion that she did nothing wrong, and it was because of my TBI that I likely said too much and antagonized.
The officers conferred, and my officer told me that I lied... and that my Patty already confessed to hitting me 5 times and throwing the bowl at me.
They arrested my Patty, handcuffs and all.
I went at 6 a.m. and at 8:30 pm I got her released... and that release took until midnight.
She did not want to go home...so she went to a motel.
We talked for 4 days in which she said " I love you" a number of times.
Then she stopped answering and also did not return texts.
I secured an attorney, who conferred with an attorney that Patty hired.
next day when I returned home from Doctor's office... the sheriff was waiting for me with an order of protection.
I was to leave immediately and could only return once for 15 minutes with a police escort to gather my possessions,,,, 13 years worth of possessions!
I left with one computer and 4 pairs of underwear, and socks.
Sadly, I had a friend follow me so he could safeguard my vaporizers and meds.
WHY this explanation?
Because I have not helped the community for 4 weeks.
All vaporizers in a friends basement, and Vitolo in a car.
I go to friends home daily to check emails, but your friend Vitolo the Vaporist is at this time homeless.
No place will rent to a guy with $771 a month income.
I was privy to a "pocket dial", in which I heard her only friend encouraging her to destroy this picture and that... "reminders of him will just make you weak" she said.
She said that she wished that in her brutal marriage she had someone to guide her the way she was now guiding Patty.
I could listen no more, and I hung up.
I will post a note here when I have a place to live, so that I can once again accept donations of parts and vaporizers for the community of terminally ill low income patients.
At this time, it is all I can do to traverse the many miles to the post office, so I am temporarily useless to everyone including myself.
I spill my guts here for lack of people I trust.
I have trust issues, and childhood abandonment issues that make me solitary at the time.
I do not believe that e can find our way back together from this darkness.
I am still in love, and still wear my wedding band.
I retrieved hers from the trash, and I keep it on my keychain.
Please know that I am not giving up my promise to the Universe.
I will soon get settled, and resume were I left off, whether alone, or with partner.
I for now seek a place to live (hopefully a 1 bedroom and not a studio), to store 13 years worth of memories, clothing, and vaporizers.
This is my explanation to all who follow my posts.....
That I am neither dead nor insane.
I will once soon let self be healed, and will let you all know when I can accept vaporizers again.
My first priority will be to find a place for myself and dog, and then to remake my life
THEN, I will collect used/unwanted vapes again for the community
Wow that's bunch of sharing Vito!
Do you blame me?... I've been holding it in for 2 weeks!
Thanks for reading... and I will be back!
I left my computer on 24/7 at a friends place 30 miles from tucson, so when I once again am back here near computer, I will know what has been going on!
Too much drama, and disappointment.
I still love my Patty, but this was a very intense disappointment, for me to adapt to.
I will hurry to heal, so I can resume by debt payment to the Universe.
