Hey guy's,
Sorry I've been out for a day or so but sometimes we all just need a break. Ya know, when I came to FC it was the first forum I had ever been. At first things were quite overwhelming and frankly a bit scary. But I figured I had this second person or alias "mvapes" that I created so that no matter what nothing would affect me in reality. My heart and personal life would be protected against any emotion or anxiety that I suffer with at home.
At first I found it a bit relieving as now I had an outlet to speak my mind and be free to be who or whatever I wanted.
Well after sometime, especially after I was diagnosed with Parkinson's and created this thread I realized that mvapes had actually become a second me and it became apparent that he had started building up his own baggage. I carried both his and my emotional stress. But I figured I could handle it.
Learning of how many people that supported me was inspiring. I decided to tuck my aliases baggage under the rug and become a figure of inspiration. I wanted to share my disease and progress with people that could see if my fat ass could fight the fight than they could too.
I actually started visiting the vape threads less and less and as of lately most of my time is spent in discussion rooms. I found it more interesting talking to others about their illnesses and learning about alternative medications. I made friends even outside in the real world off FC that proved to be and have become some of my best fucking friends.
If anyone else even has an inkling or understanding to what I just said than you know that this can also happen the other way around. Sometimes my personal problems bleed over to mvapes as well.
We say things we don't mean, we take things the wrong way and can even take things out on people we don't mean too.
What I'm trying to say is, were a fucking family. Albeit, it's an online family but what happens with family at home. Have we never said or done anything we didn't mean? Has no one ever lashed out by accident? Of course they did and guess what?
The same shit happens here. And I'm pretty sure it'll happen again.
I'm going to practice what I preach and say, if I did or said something to upset anyone I promise to try harder not to in the future.
Sometimes shit just get's real....