In all seriousness, depression, not the "I got the blues", but the straight up "gun on the roof of your mouth" depression SUUUUUUUCKS!!! And it usually doesn't come alone. I'm lucky enough to have the triad; diagnosed depression (w/ a few bouts of manic depression throughout the years), anxiety & OCD (hard fuckin' core organizational and clean freak type shit. Super exhausting!) This crapolla has dogged me my WHOLE life. It's robbed me of happiness, love, self acceptance, opportunities, & so much more. I can understand
@clukx where you & everyone else in this thread are coming from.
Pills, for me...fuck the pills! Memories of being a little kid puking my guts out, dizzy, crying & lying down in my mother's or grandmother's lap. Nope, not for me. And I never liked how they made me feel (when I gave them a shot later on)...like a goddamn zombie!!! Emotionless & there pyhsically but not mentally. The things that have helped me are...
Art: Even if you suck at it (I do!), try painting. Or writing, or photography (my favorite!). Something artistic. It's a release & a healthy escape. Reading too. Books baby! (Not magazines or forums!
)
Music: Thank God for music! Life to me would not be worth living for me without it. But try to stay away from the depressing shit!
(No Thom Yorke!
) Listening to stuff like this, while great artistically & emotionally affirming, just made me go down the drain even further.
But some Motown, oh baby, just instantly pulls me out of most funks & super charges me right there & then. Afro-beat & some hard heavy rock/metal I find works well for me too.
More people straight up need some Motown in their lives!
Weed: Weed is tight!
Unless your a pain patient, I'd say stay away from macro-dosing. I used to smoke, then later vape shit tons, but found micro-dosing much more suitable in helping me get to an overall more positive mental place & attitude. Again, not trying to be preachy, just my
.
Exercise: Big one here. If your able, just do it (felt like I've heard that somewhere before
). Like everyday. I'm currently on a two month plus t-break & walking every morning after I get up just helps to start the day on a positive note & puts me mentally in a good place. I plan on running once the weather cools down (fuckin' tinea versicolor!
). Just started getting into lifting weights again as well. Another option to consider if the weather outside sucks.
If you ever feel suicidal, talk to someone, anyone. As somebody whose been at death's door by his own hand, talking would have helped me out immensely in that particular situation & then later through the years, has helped me out when feeling that way. Talking & connecting just helps. For me personally, I always found suicidal thoughts to be kind of like cravings. If I can make it past those, it allows me the time to (re)build up the strength to defeat the next one(s). Best o' luck my friend. Life sure can suck some donkey dick, but it can have it's moments of bliss & beauty as well. Trying to keeps things in perspective helps me a lot as well, because it can always be worse. Much, much worse.
Edited...you know, for OCD's sake.