I have not been involved in organized religion for a long time, yet I have also thought deeply on these things Cody420 and honestly I think you've more or less already got the advice you need. As lwien said, if something makes you feel bad or guilty then simply don't do it: if you believe God made you and made the world around you then trust that you have everything you need to understand and participate in that world housed fully within your mind/body and soul. Including the humility to ask for advice and help from others when necessary. So guilt is a good indication that yes, you are doing something wrong...learn to pay attention to those messages and take them seriously when they arrive. However remember that emotions are tricky devils...sometimes you
really have to ask the question
WHY do I feel this way. Be attentive and honest with yourself and I'm sure it will come to you eventually.
The idea that there is something inherently wrong with Cannabis usage is however bunk, IMO. The scripture in Vicki's signature is actually the perfect example. Everything is here for a reason, and everything has it's place (IMO). Cannabis can be tremendously helpful: it alleviates pain for those in need, it restores balance to bodies that have become run down, helps with digestion and appetite, helps control blood pressure and glaucoma and many, many other medical benefits. IMO we can almost look at Cannabis as a type of "adaptogen." Not to mention that often it can open the door to untapped creativity and alternative patterns of thinking and behaviour which, with the right personalities and motivating factors behind them, could be a powerful force for good in the world. For instance many people find that they feel "peaceful" during/after Cannabis usage. Surely peace is a desirable, Christian value?
So Cannabis has good virtues, of course. As you know, nothing is really all that simple though. Even though it is "good" it can still certainly be abused, and that is a problem. A big problem. Again to go back to something lwien said...
lwien said:
I don't believe that your life should revolve around ANY one thing, be it weed or anything else.
How true that is. If God has filled this world with millions and millions of experiences for you to have, places to see and people to meet, things to be done, things to be made, things to be fixed, things to be cared for, things to be understood or seen or heard or felt or just thought about...if all of these wonderful, incredible facets of the world are out there just waiting to be experienced...isn't it a little criminal if you only do ONE thing, over and over and over? No matter how "good" that thing is? Especially if that one activity is just taking...taking from the world and not giving back. We all have to work and play our part while we're here, and I'm afraid no one gets the role of "full-time stoner." Sooner or later you do need to do something else. Life is variety, and really if you're looking with the right perspective it is ALL wonderful.
My personal philosophy goes something like this: there is really only one basic good or evil, and that is intentionality. Cannabis itself, as an example, is not good or bad, sanctified or evil; it is PEOPLE who make it what it is...Cannabis is just a plant that grows in the world. It is people who have criminalized it and made it taboo, people who abuse it and bring harm about through it and therefore it is also people who now question whether this plant is "good" or bad." Yet if we never came along and started experimenting with it, the plant itself would just keep going about its own planty business. MAYBE the world is much, much more complicated than that...but IMO what we can control and what we can know for sure is just our own self and our experience, and to that end I believe that personal responsibility should be the foundation of what any religion or philosophy teaches you. Good luck Cody420.