I have a black dog...............

[dorkus_molorkus]

I have a black dog…………………….


You wretched, cursed animal,
You black, slinking, sly cur,


I know you, I see you,
I hate you,


Yet I feed you,
constantly,


You are the voice that tell me I cant,
You are the voice that tells me I am wrong,
You are the voice that tells me I am broken,
You are the voice that tells me I am not good enough,


You loathe me,
Yet you are always with me,
constantly,


I am at your mercy,
I am your slave,
Always whispering, Often shouting,
constantly


I have screamed you away,
I have wished you away,
I have tried to self help you away,
I have tried to medicate you away,


Yet you are always there,
Always in the background,
often in the foreground,
constantly


My nightmare, my curse,
As always, my fault.
constantly


I have a black dog………………………………

 

[JCat]

Is this your original @dorkus_molorkus ? It's excellent! Very well written and very thought provoking ... (I know where you are coming from ...)

 

[dorkus_molorkus]

Thankyou,

it didnt exist 5 mins before it was posted.
I sat down to type, and this is what came out.
2 minutes after that, I posted it here.

 

[JCat]

Very cool. You're quite the poet! (And an entertaining and highly valued member of this forum/community)

Anyways ... just wanted to mention how much I liked it ... thought it was yours ... but wasn't 100% positive so thought I'd check (would still be a good post ... just SO much better since you wrote it!)

Also understand what you are getting at I believe ... being down sucks ... but try as one may ... its so hard to escape ... if it wasn't for cannabis I don't know how I'd make it through my depressive phases waiting for my hypomania to set back in and for the world to be right again ...

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Tomorrow will be a better day man ... although shit haunts you today ... perhaps a new day will bring some perspective tomorrow (if not ... there's always the next day )

Keep on truckin' man ...

 

[farscaper]

I got one too... Thank you for sharing openly. Made me feel a little better.

 

[Hoof Hearted]

DISLIKE!

...And I may just have to write a rebuttal poem about how much I miss my black dog

 

[JCat]

It's metaphorical ... not an actual black dog ... I miss my actual black dog too ... but that's not what dorkus is talking about

 

[Hoof Hearted]

lol well in that case i'll stop writing a poem about my actual black dog (it was goin good btw)

sorry dorkus, i thought the poem was literally about a dog

so what's it about then? anything specific you care to share?

 

[momofthegoons]

I think dorkus was speaking from the heart and soul. And, in essence, he just did share.

 

[Hoof Hearted]

I'm intrigued by it but still can't figure out what it's about.
@dorkus_molorkus Is it completely metaphorical or is it about certain voices or dark thoughts?

 

[JCat]

Google "I have a black dog" and you'll find various links about writings on depression etc.

 

[Hoof Hearted]

okay. okay.. i get it now.

i'm surprised i wasn't familiar with that term from my own lifelong experience struggling with similar issues.

i love the poem, dorkus.

 

[RUDE BOY]

I like it Dorkus . Now go listen to Desolation Row Do a few huge hits and type yourself and us some more word stuff .

Lift our spirits. come on , come on .