TheFatBastard
Well-Known Member
Hey guys!
It has been 6 years and a half since I started vaping, indeed, since I started consuming cannabis.
I was 38 years old, I was REALLY stressed in a white collar / high pay job I was really sick of after 15 years, and started vaping recreationally only on saturdays.
Damn, greats saturday nights back then!!!
I noticed it also lowered my anxiety, and made me think a lot about my life. I must say, I use to vape in total dark listening to music, in a very introspective way. I like a lot meditating and thinking in my vaping sessions. I use to continuously overthink when I’m sober, but cannabis really helped me with that.
Then, reaching to my 40’s, kids growing up…. I realized I wasn't happy with my professional life, and how it was affecting my personal life. Though most people could though I was “successful”, I wanted something else.
By then, I started vaping from friday to sundays, it was my escape from the shit I had to deal at work and a reward for hanging on there. That was like 3 years ago.
In my meditating / introspective thinking vaping sessions, I used to fantasize about quitting my job and start a new professional life doing something I really love and I’m good at. But I have a big mortgage, two kids, I needed to make good money if I didn’t want my family to suffer a decrease in their life level. It was a really hard decission, quitting a job that is a dream job for most peope… but I really wanted to be happy, so, I started visualizing it, little by little, until I had it all figured out…. And took the leap.
The decission was made, but I had to wait for the right moment to do it. I started thinking “damn, am I a fucking idiot leaving such job?” I started thinking cannabis was affecting my thinking and my behaviour….but it wasn’t true, it simply helped me realize what I wanted and how to do it.
By then, I started to vape on mondays and maybe another weekday, and of course through the weekends.
When I quit my job and started my new life, I had plenty of time, so I enjoy vaping almost everyday, no because I need it, but because I like it. I enjoy going to my cave, put a record on the turntable and have a nice moment for myself. Only downside to this is that I use to eat more at dinner….but I’m happier too
I must say that my consumption has been always the same….. maybe 0.10 / 0.20g in a 2/3 hour session in the evenings. I have rarely vaped twice a day in all these years, just maybe when I go to the beach and enjoy a little microdose session with my Argo, and then feel like going to my cave again in the evening.
I have had breaks, one week, two, a month…..I can totally manage to make breaks with no withdrawals symptoms at all. Maybe I take a litle more time to fall asleep, but almost imperceptible to be honest. Maybe is because I don’t comsume that much, or at least, is what I think.
I feel a little guilty vaping almost everyday. I didn’t want it to become a daily habit, so I use to leave one to three days without vaping each week. I really like to vape, but if I don’t, is not a big deal, really. Specially if I have something to do.
I love the highs I get when I stop vaping for 3 or 5 days, butI don’t really know if it is worth the wait of the days that I don’t vape…. I simply vape when I feel too, but I notice that if I vape 3/4 days in a row, vaping is not that fun anymore. Maybe I’m getting used to it, or to the set and setting….
I’m a very anxious person, not a pathology, but a condition. I use to overthink, probably too much, my head goes too fast for most people, and cannabis really gives me perspective and makes life more enjoyable, or at least that what I think.
Resuming, now I’m happy, I’m making more money than I used to do in my old job doing something I love and I have a lot of spare time for my own, which leads me to love vaping almost everyday.
I’d like to improve my relationship with cannabis after almost 7 years, so, after reading my story, I’d like you guys to give me your 2 cents on some of these questions I make to myself:
- Am I vaping too much? I don’t think so, guess I’m around 1gr per week, in 4 to 5 sessions a week.
- Should I leave at least two days between sessions? Maybe that way I’ll enjoy these sessions more than I do….
- Is good to have this “habit”? Because I really think it has become an habit, maybe not a bad habit, but an habit after all.
- Is sustainable to vape everyday and keep enjoying cannabis? You know, it ain’t a party if it happens everyday, but thewaiting is the hardest part
Also, any advices / points of view are welcome.
Thanks in advance to everybody!
It has been 6 years and a half since I started vaping, indeed, since I started consuming cannabis.
I was 38 years old, I was REALLY stressed in a white collar / high pay job I was really sick of after 15 years, and started vaping recreationally only on saturdays.
Damn, greats saturday nights back then!!!
I noticed it also lowered my anxiety, and made me think a lot about my life. I must say, I use to vape in total dark listening to music, in a very introspective way. I like a lot meditating and thinking in my vaping sessions. I use to continuously overthink when I’m sober, but cannabis really helped me with that.
Then, reaching to my 40’s, kids growing up…. I realized I wasn't happy with my professional life, and how it was affecting my personal life. Though most people could though I was “successful”, I wanted something else.
By then, I started vaping from friday to sundays, it was my escape from the shit I had to deal at work and a reward for hanging on there. That was like 3 years ago.
In my meditating / introspective thinking vaping sessions, I used to fantasize about quitting my job and start a new professional life doing something I really love and I’m good at. But I have a big mortgage, two kids, I needed to make good money if I didn’t want my family to suffer a decrease in their life level. It was a really hard decission, quitting a job that is a dream job for most peope… but I really wanted to be happy, so, I started visualizing it, little by little, until I had it all figured out…. And took the leap.
The decission was made, but I had to wait for the right moment to do it. I started thinking “damn, am I a fucking idiot leaving such job?” I started thinking cannabis was affecting my thinking and my behaviour….but it wasn’t true, it simply helped me realize what I wanted and how to do it.
By then, I started to vape on mondays and maybe another weekday, and of course through the weekends.
When I quit my job and started my new life, I had plenty of time, so I enjoy vaping almost everyday, no because I need it, but because I like it. I enjoy going to my cave, put a record on the turntable and have a nice moment for myself. Only downside to this is that I use to eat more at dinner….but I’m happier too
I must say that my consumption has been always the same….. maybe 0.10 / 0.20g in a 2/3 hour session in the evenings. I have rarely vaped twice a day in all these years, just maybe when I go to the beach and enjoy a little microdose session with my Argo, and then feel like going to my cave again in the evening.
I have had breaks, one week, two, a month…..I can totally manage to make breaks with no withdrawals symptoms at all. Maybe I take a litle more time to fall asleep, but almost imperceptible to be honest. Maybe is because I don’t comsume that much, or at least, is what I think.
I feel a little guilty vaping almost everyday. I didn’t want it to become a daily habit, so I use to leave one to three days without vaping each week. I really like to vape, but if I don’t, is not a big deal, really. Specially if I have something to do.
I love the highs I get when I stop vaping for 3 or 5 days, butI don’t really know if it is worth the wait of the days that I don’t vape…. I simply vape when I feel too, but I notice that if I vape 3/4 days in a row, vaping is not that fun anymore. Maybe I’m getting used to it, or to the set and setting….
I’m a very anxious person, not a pathology, but a condition. I use to overthink, probably too much, my head goes too fast for most people, and cannabis really gives me perspective and makes life more enjoyable, or at least that what I think.
Resuming, now I’m happy, I’m making more money than I used to do in my old job doing something I love and I have a lot of spare time for my own, which leads me to love vaping almost everyday.
I’d like to improve my relationship with cannabis after almost 7 years, so, after reading my story, I’d like you guys to give me your 2 cents on some of these questions I make to myself:
- Am I vaping too much? I don’t think so, guess I’m around 1gr per week, in 4 to 5 sessions a week.
- Should I leave at least two days between sessions? Maybe that way I’ll enjoy these sessions more than I do….
- Is good to have this “habit”? Because I really think it has become an habit, maybe not a bad habit, but an habit after all.
- Is sustainable to vape everyday and keep enjoying cannabis? You know, it ain’t a party if it happens everyday, but thewaiting is the hardest part
Also, any advices / points of view are welcome.
Thanks in advance to everybody!