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Hello everyone I hope you are all well!
So I recently fully 'fucked' combustion as it were. (Cigarettes and Weed) Took a puff on a j recently and I wanted to boke. So I guess that's that.
Anyway! I fully quit weed and tobacco previously for 2 months this year, just to see where I stood mentally. I was undergoing counseling and taking a long break off the weed, to see what my normal baseline was like mentally. I basically almost totally lost it. It was very,very intense and I had to go back on SSRI's. I had been on them previously. They brought me back to a reasonable way of living, I was able to go to work and not freak out etc.
Anyway, I noticed during that time and also another month this year where I quit again. I was combusting tobacco and weed joints daily, though I did have a MFLB it was more of a special treat thing. I was more interested in combustion, I figured feeding my addiction was overall worth it, worth that rolling a j and lighting the end. It was a form of self abuse that was 'socially acceptable' amongst all my stoner friends.
The point being, prior to taking the ssris I ended up falling back into the worst depression of my life. Every night I was unable to fall asleep, and when I did I was waking up having had night terrors. Literally drenched in sweat. I felt like crap all the time. Then a few weeks later the depression kicked in worse than ever. All the memories I had been blocking due to my weed use came back with venegence.
As I say it was awful. I did get through it though and I am 100% better though I need to work on it daily. I am much happier with my use, I quit smoking altogether and I don't feel addicted anymore. It's my medicine.
But, I now know after this experience, that I probably hadn't experienced true REM sleep in years! I read about depression and rem rebound when stopping weed. But I wonder now, was it the weed or was it the combustion aswell?
I am not using nearly as much mj as before, and I am vaporising. I can take time off and I feel fine. However, I have noticed that since starting vaping my dreams have returned although not as vividly as when I truly quit for that time.
Does the act of smoking itself relate to REM loss as much as weed does in itself? Surely, if vaporising is more effective then my sleep should be affected much more? It seems to me like it's not affected as much and I'm sleeping better than when I was combusting.
It's a head scratcher and I'm wondering if anybody knows anything about this?
Thanks for reading
So I recently fully 'fucked' combustion as it were. (Cigarettes and Weed) Took a puff on a j recently and I wanted to boke. So I guess that's that.
Anyway! I fully quit weed and tobacco previously for 2 months this year, just to see where I stood mentally. I was undergoing counseling and taking a long break off the weed, to see what my normal baseline was like mentally. I basically almost totally lost it. It was very,very intense and I had to go back on SSRI's. I had been on them previously. They brought me back to a reasonable way of living, I was able to go to work and not freak out etc.
Anyway, I noticed during that time and also another month this year where I quit again. I was combusting tobacco and weed joints daily, though I did have a MFLB it was more of a special treat thing. I was more interested in combustion, I figured feeding my addiction was overall worth it, worth that rolling a j and lighting the end. It was a form of self abuse that was 'socially acceptable' amongst all my stoner friends.
The point being, prior to taking the ssris I ended up falling back into the worst depression of my life. Every night I was unable to fall asleep, and when I did I was waking up having had night terrors. Literally drenched in sweat. I felt like crap all the time. Then a few weeks later the depression kicked in worse than ever. All the memories I had been blocking due to my weed use came back with venegence.
As I say it was awful. I did get through it though and I am 100% better though I need to work on it daily. I am much happier with my use, I quit smoking altogether and I don't feel addicted anymore. It's my medicine.
But, I now know after this experience, that I probably hadn't experienced true REM sleep in years! I read about depression and rem rebound when stopping weed. But I wonder now, was it the weed or was it the combustion aswell?
I am not using nearly as much mj as before, and I am vaporising. I can take time off and I feel fine. However, I have noticed that since starting vaping my dreams have returned although not as vividly as when I truly quit for that time.
Does the act of smoking itself relate to REM loss as much as weed does in itself? Surely, if vaporising is more effective then my sleep should be affected much more? It seems to me like it's not affected as much and I'm sleeping better than when I was combusting.
It's a head scratcher and I'm wondering if anybody knows anything about this?
Thanks for reading
