The Depressimistic Thread

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lwien said:
Depression takes another life.

RIP.........Robin Williams. :rip:
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Just saw that. It's a shame. It's a shame because people laugh at us as if depression is all made up. We are just "pessimists" and negative thinkers. We hear "oh just be more positive everything will get better" but there's more to it then that. There are many connections between depression and intelligence, creativity, and uniqueness. So many of histories famous artists, writers, poets, and musicians have suffered from documented cases of this bout. Depression should be taken seriously but so many people try and disprove it from being a real medical condition. I mostly suffer from Anhedonia. Some call it a side effect to depression, some consider it its own thing, but anhedonia is where you lose all sense of pleasure in your brains reward system. Everything is always... whatever. Not good, not bad. La La La cut me down the middle because I feel okay... and alright... and fine.
 
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arf777 said:
If someone with the resources, talent and social support of Robin Williams can't beat this, it does not bode well for the rest of us. Not good. Has me wondering how much longer I'm gonna put up with the pain, loneliness and frustration.
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Why can we not yearn to take responsibility for ourselves? We need to stay strong, always pushing onward and upward despite the odds. This is a personal battle that we can fight together, so don't give up hope.
 
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farscaper

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you ever have those days after youve had a few really good days you start to realize (think) everyone was really just humoring you... like a pat on the back.

"good job sport, now go back to your mediocrity... thanks."

ok im gonna quietly slip back to the back of the room and sneek out like I was never here.


:disgust:
 
SD_haze

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farscaper said:
you ever have those days after youve had a few really good days you start to realize (think) everyone was really just humoring you... like a pat on the back.

"good job sport, now go back to your mediocrity... thanks."

ok im gonna quietly slip back to the back of the room and sneek out like I was never here.


:disgust:
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Definitely felt like that from my coworkers, two weeks into my new job, last month. Now I figure all I can do, is what I do, and that's okay.
 
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EveryDayAmnesiac

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another day that I feel I have no intention or desire to ever "get better." why do I feel as though living the suicide life is somehow more "noble." why do I feel like anyone who is happy is just being childish, is forgetting something or someone they shouldn't be.

I have zero idea even how to be happy or fulfilled. how do you get over regret that can't be fixed. how do you just "accept it" and move on. seems like it's just denial - or cheating.
 
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farscaper

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the only purpose for this existence is to learn and grow.

find gain in all experiences good and bad.

spend the sad and lonely times learning and you will grow...

lol I took up cannabis alchemy. its very rewarding. :nod: some times depression needs a little more medicine.

on a personal note. right there with ya bud!
 
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EveryDayAmnesiac said:
another day that I feel I have no intention or desire to ever "get better." why do I feel as though living the suicide life is somehow more "noble." why do I feel like anyone who is happy is just being childish, is forgetting something or someone they shouldn't be.

I have zero idea even how to be happy or fulfilled. how do you get over regret that can't be fixed. how do you just "accept it" and move on. seems like it's just denial - or cheating.
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For me; it comes down to a simple quote. Lyrics from a song I have always held close to my heart.

"I could wait around for the dust to still, but I don't believe that it ever will"

We need to let things forever be unresolved, allow things to never come to that conclusion that would bring us so much peace. Something that never meant anything to anybody could meant the world to someone. It's the energy you put into it that keeps it alive.
 
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farscaper

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EveryDayAmnesiac said:
So how about this one, @arf777 ?

It was my birthday today. And the only birthday recognition I received was a notice from FC, and an E-mail greeting from my car insurance company.

And I spent the day bartending as a favor to my friend, who did not remember. And I didn't mention it.

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happy birthday dude! let's drag ourselves through the mud together!
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Have a Happy Birthday EDA. I'll be thinking about you.
And you're not a stupid asshole.
 
arf777

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EveryDayAmnesiac said:
So how about this one, @arf777 ?

It was my birthday today. And the only birthday recognition I received was a notice from FC, and an E-mail greeting from my car insurance company.

And I spent the day bartending as a favor to my friend, who did not remember. And I didn't mention it.

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That sucks.
Happy birthday. It's my older sister's today, too.
 
RUDE BOY

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:zombie: Happy B'Day EveryDayAmnesiac. Be Well, jam Out, Rest ... Don't know why i'm wishin ya a happy B'day when i've pretty much missed it now being that it's around 23:20 so Have a great first Day after birthday why don't ya.

And know for fuckin' sure it could be worse, at least you remembered ! ...:myday:


:peace:
 
Enchantre

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True. Us 50-something Leos have to stick together!

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Wow, hey, let me edit this to add, in regards to depression, that I lost my brother to depression. I married into a family that has a serious tendency to SADD & depression/anxiety.
Right now, I have a very depressimistic spouse. I'm neuro-diverse-ish, so I am VERY FUCKING familiar with being "the life of the party" on the outside, and on the inside be TERRIFIED of these people, scared that they will see what a fraud I am, and with no real social skills of our own. It's odd, really. However, that is how some of us work.
 
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Packing up all of my stuff, clothes, things I will need.. Little comforts. Leaving the family home tonight, partner has had enough of my depression and irratability / stress bumming her out while she tries to be the best mother she can be for our 5 month old daughter :(
Seeing a psychologist tomorrow to start the long journey of tackling my mental health. Seems like I would be better to curl up and die than face what is ahead when I close the door behind myself later on tonight. It's cold tonight, and I already feel shaken from the storm of my life. The seasons have names, but in my life they are all dark winters. I only see the leaves deep under the snow, and I see the sun but I feel no warmth.
If I have upset anyone on this forum, been annoying or frustrating in any way, I am sorry. We never are what we invent, or intend. I am another misguided ghost, travelling endlessly. Have a nice night everyone who has the ability to do so, enjoy it. Appreciate it. Whoever you are; you are not meant to suffer.
 
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