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I feel you man.. Sorry for overlooking your post. I've been there man. Begging myself out aloud to calm down and just getting manic and losing the very fabric of my mind on the floor.. Not knowing if it's the funniest cosmic joke on earth that I am stuck here as a simple human being harboring a lifetime of pain on my shoulders.. Or if it's truly sad and that this is what it all comes down to..Here I am again. In the stupid fucking Apology Thread.
I keep doing the same goddamn stupid things, over and over, and then I wonder why I'm unhappy.
It has become quite clear to me that my mental illness is no longer fun and games, but causing serious, perhaps irreparable damage to myself and those around me. Something's gotta give. I'm tired of waking up and not knowing what I have to apologize for, but knowing there must be something.
I've never been this dark before. I literally don't know what horrible thing I'm going to say or do next. I am completely out of control.
For fuck's sake, today I was just sitting out in my yard cackling to myself about god knows what for god knows how long. Then I just started crying, and once that was done, I was howling with laughter again. You know, that scary laugh?
This apology goes to all of FC, but in particular @vtac, @pakalolo, @Stu, @momofthegoons, and
@CarolKing.
I'm also proud to say that I haven't had any alcohol for over 10 hours. This hour has been the toughest one yet.
"We may be through with the past, but the past is not through with us."
It always passes though after I tell someone I love to fuck off and blame them..
Here's to not going back to that place again, stay strong my brother. Cheers. (not with booze though. Let's do a vape cheers
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Apologies in advance for this offensive counterpoint:
Yeah, without Religion and faith the world as we know it wouldn't exist. It would be a sad fucking world that i would want No part of. 
