NewVape
What a guy!
Well it finally happened. I was at work yesterday and there was a small accident. A stack of boxes fell on me. No worries I'm fine, I got a little whiplash and am otherwise ok. But, I had to pee for the company and it came up possitive for THC of course. I told the general manager that I did use medical marijuana in addition to other prescribed medications to treat my depression. I have a meeting on Monday to discuss the positive result and I fully expect to be fired at that time.
I've thought about this and my wife and i have talked about it over the last 24 hours, and we're both ok if that happens. In 2010 I developed severe recurrent depression, by mid June I had a suicide plan and the ability and means to carry it out. I am glad to say I did seek help and started on Paxil. I got better and didn't kill myself but was still lethargic and miserable. My Dr. and I then added Welbutren to the mix and I got my energy back, but was still miserable. That is when I decided to try MM. This was a carefully thought out decision discussed with my Dr. and agreed on by both my wife and I. As an adult person I made a decision about my health care and became willing th accecpt the consiqunces of my actions whether they be good bad or indifferent. So I started using medical marijana, on my days off, never on a day i was going to work in the safety of my own home. You know what life got a lot happier. I'm happier, my wife is happier, the cats are happier and we all agree that it has made a huge improvement in our lives.
And then this came along. So the wife and I talked some more and I thought some more and we both decided that it was ok that this happening, the cats didn't care one way or the other. No matter what happens on Monday it will be a victory for me. It is possible that they will surprise me and have a compassionate response to my test being positive, but since the home office is in TX I'm not holding my breath. I fully expect to be fired. Now I am well versed in prop 215, and labor laws here in CA and they had a right to ask for the test, and as an at-will employee they have the right to fire me anytime they want. But if they do so, it will be a loss for them. I'm a great employee and it will sadden me if they make a decision from such a close minded space. But my wife, the cats and I will be fine, more inconvenienced then anything. Yes I'll have to get a new job, but I've done that before, can do that again. The really really cool thing is that a year ago something like this would have pushed me closer to suicide. Today it's just a thing to handle.
What this has prompted me to do is to start to become more outspoken about this. I no longer want to live in the shadow of other peoples judgement and in fear of their reprisal. As I said before I an a grown adult person capable of making my own decisions. And in this case I hae decided to volunteer for a national marijuana law reform group. I will no longer post "herb" or "material" it is marijuana and I will call it that. I don't think that wear a t-shirt all the time that says "I vape pot", but I won't lie about it anymore. Because I also thought what if another person in my situation is out there but isn't in such a good space, what if this did really drive someone closer to suicide. Which made me think even larger about the stigma, close mindesness inaccuracy and repercussions that surround medical marijuana and it's laws.
I can no longer remain silent. You are my worldwide witness. More to come...
Edit: I may have posted this in the wrong forum. If so Mod please move.
mod note- Ask FC is for questions. Thread moved.
I've thought about this and my wife and i have talked about it over the last 24 hours, and we're both ok if that happens. In 2010 I developed severe recurrent depression, by mid June I had a suicide plan and the ability and means to carry it out. I am glad to say I did seek help and started on Paxil. I got better and didn't kill myself but was still lethargic and miserable. My Dr. and I then added Welbutren to the mix and I got my energy back, but was still miserable. That is when I decided to try MM. This was a carefully thought out decision discussed with my Dr. and agreed on by both my wife and I. As an adult person I made a decision about my health care and became willing th accecpt the consiqunces of my actions whether they be good bad or indifferent. So I started using medical marijana, on my days off, never on a day i was going to work in the safety of my own home. You know what life got a lot happier. I'm happier, my wife is happier, the cats are happier and we all agree that it has made a huge improvement in our lives.
And then this came along. So the wife and I talked some more and I thought some more and we both decided that it was ok that this happening, the cats didn't care one way or the other. No matter what happens on Monday it will be a victory for me. It is possible that they will surprise me and have a compassionate response to my test being positive, but since the home office is in TX I'm not holding my breath. I fully expect to be fired. Now I am well versed in prop 215, and labor laws here in CA and they had a right to ask for the test, and as an at-will employee they have the right to fire me anytime they want. But if they do so, it will be a loss for them. I'm a great employee and it will sadden me if they make a decision from such a close minded space. But my wife, the cats and I will be fine, more inconvenienced then anything. Yes I'll have to get a new job, but I've done that before, can do that again. The really really cool thing is that a year ago something like this would have pushed me closer to suicide. Today it's just a thing to handle.
What this has prompted me to do is to start to become more outspoken about this. I no longer want to live in the shadow of other peoples judgement and in fear of their reprisal. As I said before I an a grown adult person capable of making my own decisions. And in this case I hae decided to volunteer for a national marijuana law reform group. I will no longer post "herb" or "material" it is marijuana and I will call it that. I don't think that wear a t-shirt all the time that says "I vape pot", but I won't lie about it anymore. Because I also thought what if another person in my situation is out there but isn't in such a good space, what if this did really drive someone closer to suicide. Which made me think even larger about the stigma, close mindesness inaccuracy and repercussions that surround medical marijuana and it's laws.
I can no longer remain silent. You are my worldwide witness. More to come...
Edit: I may have posted this in the wrong forum. If so Mod please move.
mod note- Ask FC is for questions. Thread moved.