Firstly, thank you so much to all of you for being so open, non judgemental and receptive!
@Doktor Dub , thanks for your friendly words of support. I just cant help myself but to share, and I dont do things in halves! I am dead honest and always wantnto help others.
@invertedisdead , I persoally really appreciate all of your views, and Im sorry if it seems like we have beem shooting you down in flames. I have taken on board all you have said and dismissed nothing. I entertain all notions, even when my schizophrenic friend comes out with the most preposterous delusional shit, I find myself actually considering it momentarily, when what I should really do is take cold shower to come to my senses!
@JCat , I feep for you. We often fail to realise how lucky we are in certain ways. Yoit situation with food choices and prices sounds tough. Like inverted has wisely ssid, dont feel too bad about what you cannot help. Just do the best you can. Dont get me wrong, we dont eat totally organic at all. But we are lucky to get a lot of things organic for a good price. Organic foods we eat are:
Porridge oats, pasta, millet, quinoa, peanut butter, tahini, sunflower and pumpkin seeds (no other nuts are organic though), coconut oil, meat (I dont eat a lot of meat, like 2 times a week, 150 gram portions- fish most non meat days, at least one day a week with no flesh foods, sometimes 2 or 3, where all protein comes from nuts, beans and grains).
I only ever eat flesh foods once per day. I try to keep it minimal out of respect for life, but I suffer badly without fish or meat in my diet I would sure love to be vegetarian. If I wasnt allergic to eggs, this would be a lot easier, with maybe some organic dairy or goat milk/cheese.
Also foods like chia seeds are complet proteins (like hemp seeds), I can eat them due to mucus reactions. Chia seeds are also LOADED with omega 3. They also detox the liver. They are a superfood indeed.
Recently we started getting all of our spices in organic form. They are WAY superior in every sense- smell, flavor, medicinal profile. We get them cheaper than the loose jar non-irradiated ones we were getting from the local health food shop.
We order the spices online in 500 gram or kilo bags. We get everything in advance for the best deal possible. Food, supllements etc. It takes forward thinking, discipline, scrutiny, and structure, but it is the only way my mum and I can get what we do out of our limited money.
Dilligence pays!
The only veg we eat organic that is always available and affordable is: white potatoes, carrots, garlic, and pasteurised saurkraut.
And coconut oil of course. So a good range, but still a lot of non organic foods.
Jcat, Your apsaragus actually sounds a lot cheaper than ours lol! I never buy it, it is like £2-3 for about 8 stalks.
@biohacker I am sorry to hear how you lost your dad. My dad was a heroin addict and killed himself when I was 3. I was too young to remember though. My step dad was manic depressive and killed himelf when I was 7, but I had not learned to grieve and it did not effect me at all.
I lost my nan 7 years ago, but even that was very easy for me to deal with and accept, as uch as I loved her. Apart from that, the only real tauma from loss I have endured is pet dogs through time. In some ways it can be harder than losing people. I feel a lot closer to my dogs than relatives or friends, I dont mean thay to sound callous, but our family apart from my mum is really shit and not much support.
And most humans care little for others. Our animals truly love us and are indeed "a man's best friend" (dogs)!
So I have been really lucky not suffering any difficult losses, so I feel for you a lot.
You may be right feeling that emotional issues are at he heart of your insomnia. There are ways to work on this. I have seen a chiropractor who specialises in N.E.T, "neuro emotional technique".
It is genuine stuff. They get to the bottom of emotional problems that always seem to originate very early in life, and are added to or enhanced by later life events. We are so affected by shit from literally the moment we are in the womb, on a consciousness level, that stays with us for years.
I had a number of treatments and cleared a load of stuff. It really helped me to develop as a person. It is like peeling back layers, the work is Never complete. We are so deep and complex.
It is called "heartspeak". I will see if I can find a good link for you. I swear on my life this is not bullshit or quackey and it really will help anybody. If you had the chance for some of this work, it may well bring some surprising and unexpected changes on many levels.
With the stress you have have faced in your fire carrer, this will very likely be related to the unresolved trauma from losing your dad.
My mum also had a treatment with this lady. She was gobsmacked at how amazingly different she felt in relation to her own unresolved trauma from losing 2 partners to suicide.
Im not trying to press anything on you here, but I feel that emotional issues may be a factor for all we know.
Like coconut oil pulling in the mouth?
Yes exactly that, excpet I use unrefined sunflower oil for 2 reasons-1, it is cheaper, and 2, i find that a very specific amoint of oil works optimally for me to clear my sinuses and throat in the morning. It is about 11 ml. It is much easier to measure this with sunflower oil. Sesame oil is also good, but more costly.
I often have to adjust the amount of oil in my mouth for optimal results, add a drop, or let a drop out. It is a brilliant blood detox. And brings amazing releif for my respiratory symptoms.
A great health practice, not to mention it is about the best thing going for good oral, tooth and gum health.
