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TeeJay1952
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Stevenski
Enter the Dragon
The only thing stopping me from killing myself is knowing how upset my family would be with the result. I would be dead & gone but I know it would really hurt my brother & his kids. At least I have my affairs in order so there would be no costs involved but I feel my day of reckoning is drawing ever closer. I fight these impulses & try to be upbeat but that is a mask of how broken & empty I feel inside. I don't even know why I am posting this really.
grokit
well-worn member
It's a good sign that you still care for others enough to consider what your loss would do to them.
Hang in there shit always changes tomorrow's a new day all you can control is your attitude
Squiby
Well-Known Member
More people than you can imagine would be deeply effected. Cherish the time you have because life is already short enough. Sometimes attitude can be a decision. Every day, make a conscience decision to have a better day tomorrow.
I wish I could make things better. My heart goes out to you.
BD9
Well-Known Member
Liking your post was to show support. Sometimes that fucking 'like' button is a real bitch.
Even when feeling as empty and broken as you do you still show what caring person you are by considering your family's feelings. If that's enough to keep you from doing anything then lean on that. And lean hard. From reading your posts I've found you to also be intelligent and well informed.
You're posting this because you feel empty and broken. Sometimes getting it out and seeing it can lead to some healing. I wish that I can offer something more healing then telling that I too have these thoughts.
If you need to PM me please do. I'll listen and not judge. Even if you just need to vent, have at it. Sometimes just someone listening and not talking is helpful.
I wish the best for you.
GetLeft
Well-Known Member
I like your posts by and large, man. Not that I can recall each one specifically. But some of them for sure. Like those freaky ass trees y'all have down under. Keep them coming. Don't let yourself think crazy shit 'cause you know it's bs.
Stevenski
Enter the Dragon
Thanks for the e-love guys 
. Life could be much worse for me & any issues I have are resolvable if I put in the effort. I have so much to be thankful for really but today has just been a really flat day for me. Maybe I woke up on the depressive side of the bed?
One thing I am glad is I did not have a shot for every time Drumpf said "tremendous" of I would be dead & that is best case scenario.
. Life could be much worse for me & any issues I have are resolvable if I put in the effort. I have so much to be thankful for really but today has just been a really flat day for me. Maybe I woke up on the depressive side of the bed? One thing I am glad is I did not have a shot for every time Drumpf said "tremendous" of I would be dead & that is best case scenario.
So there I was, sitting and thinking I'd go check out the Random Thoughts thread and then the F_ck You thread.....
:hmmm:
:hmmm:
Morty
Well-Known Member
@DDave Shit ya...wait, excuse me. I mean FUCK ya! Woot woot!!! Double your pleasure, double your fun. @Stevenski I've been there man. Many a time. Stay the course, the worm will turn. It always does. Go bicycle kick a kangaroo square in the nuts. That should put a smile on your face. It will mine. 
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kellya86
Herb gardener...
@Stevenski if you have air, food, water and herb, the rest will sort itself out...
Without the downs, the ups would be meaningless....
Without the downs, the ups would be meaningless....
Melting Pot
Sick & Twisted
@Stevenski I truly am sorry....
I really sucks feeling that way, I know because I live it everyday. I wish I had the magic to make all the depression & misery go away.unfortunately I dont stay strong and stay even higher.
So I was having a not sp great weekend so decided to take a drive to @DieHard s house to cheer up lol.
So on the way home car breaks down.
Got a mechanic coming over. Im no mechanic but the clanking sound coming out of motor doesn't sound good.
Im really hi and i have air to breathe water and food but i sure do hate life right now...
Not trying to sound like an asshole
Just the basics I guess i should be happy im hi & not homeless
What ever wooo hoooo me
If you think your life sucks look around we're not the only one's.
Peace & have a great one ,back to dabbb my misery away
I really sucks feeling that way, I know because I live it everyday. I wish I had the magic to make all the depression & misery go away.unfortunately I dont stay strong and stay even higher.
So I was having a not sp great weekend so decided to take a drive to @DieHard s house to cheer up lol.
So on the way home car breaks down.
Got a mechanic coming over. Im no mechanic but the clanking sound coming out of motor doesn't sound good.
Im really hi and i have air to breathe water and food but i sure do hate life right now...
Not trying to sound like an asshole
Just the basics I guess i should be happy im hi & not homeless
What ever wooo hoooo me
If you think your life sucks look around we're not the only one's.
Peace & have a great one ,back to dabbb my misery away
Stevenski
Enter the Dragon
It is amazing what a solid nights sleep can do for the mindset. Still don't feel great but I find myself thinking a lot about some of the hokey 12 step mantras I used to tell myself.
"control the controllables & let go of the rest" (much easier said than done)
"a day at a time" (sometimes I take it in 15 minute blocks, minutes become hours & they become days)
I have a bunch of life essentials covered so I am already winning at the game of life/survival compared to my Syrian peers. I actually have it pretty fucking good really.
Sorry to hear about your car @Melting Pot. Hopefully it is a external part that can be easily replaced.
"control the controllables & let go of the rest" (much easier said than done)
"a day at a time" (sometimes I take it in 15 minute blocks, minutes become hours & they become days)
I have a bunch of life essentials covered so I am already winning at the game of life/survival compared to my Syrian peers. I actually have it pretty fucking good really.
Sorry to hear about your car @Melting Pot. Hopefully it is a external part that can be easily replaced.
CarolKing
Singer of songs and a vapor connoisseur
@Stevenski i am so glad toady is a better day. It's all in perspective. There's always a brighter day.
BD9
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HellsWindStaff
Dharma Initiate
@Stevenski id be feeling down after the happenings of AUS Survivor too 
Send me a PM anytime buddy glad you are feeling better
Send me a PM anytime buddy glad you are feeling better
Ricardo
Well-Known Member
@Stevenski.. Reasons to be cheerful (part 4): Western Bulldogs in the Granny!!!
Melting Pot
Sick & Twisted
I'm pretty upset my car needs a new motor.
Just more stress I dont need.
Just more stress I dont need.
Stevenski
Enter the Dragon
Loving how Hawks fans are taking credit for the Doggies' success story
Carn the Bombers!
EDIT: Dunno if you know them but I listen to two AFL podcasts - Junktime and 2 Guys 1 Cup (from the stoners on TOFOP)...Jeez I hate that the footy season is so short
I am happy for the Doggies even if they knocked the Hawks out & stopped the four peat. They represent everything that is right about footy these days
. Only 6 months til NAB Cup starts .To keep this suitably random thoughts I was wondering when is Jab Watson going to surrender his tainted Brownlow to the great 4 x premiership player Sam Mitchell? See the bombers shoot up up up
Sorry to hear the bad news @Melting Pot. Is it worth replacing your engine in the car or buying another car outright?
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Melting Pot
Sick & Twisted
I'm putting serious thought into both.
Engine replacement just under 1500$ in a 2001 monte carlo ss.
Not sure what id get in a used car for that.
But im searching
Melting Pot
Sick & Twisted
Bye Bye 4 wheeler
