I definitely use cannabis daily to calm me down. How you describe the way it works for you sounds medicinal to me. Sorry if you can't use it anymore... I agree with you completely. If someone's using it medicinally, what can be the possible benefit of stopping? And it's definitely a larger net positive in my life. It works better than any anti-depressant I have ever taken. (I'm referring to high CBD/high THC strains I like).