The Apology Thread

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stay true to yourselves
Here I am again. In the stupid fucking Apology Thread.

I keep doing the same goddamn stupid things, over and over, and then I wonder why I'm unhappy.

It has become quite clear to me that my mental illness is no longer fun and games, but causing serious, perhaps irreparable damage to myself and those around me. Something's gotta give. I'm tired of waking up and not knowing what I have to apologize for, but knowing there must be something.

I've never been this dark before. I literally don't know what horrible thing I'm going to say or do next. I am completely out of control.

For fuck's sake, today I was just sitting out in my yard cackling to myself about god knows what for god knows how long. Then I just started crying, and once that was done, I was howling with laughter again. You know, that scary laugh?

This apology goes to all of FC, but in particular @vtac, @pakalolo, @Stu, @momofthegoons, and
@CarolKing.

I'm also proud to say that I haven't had any alcohol for over 10 hours. This hour has been the toughest one yet. :ugh:

"We may be through with the past, but the past is not through with us."
I feel you man.. Sorry for overlooking your post. I've been there man. Begging myself out aloud to calm down and just getting manic and losing the very fabric of my mind on the floor.. Not knowing if it's the funniest cosmic joke on earth that I am stuck here as a simple human being harboring a lifetime of pain on my shoulders.. Or if it's truly sad and that this is what it all comes down to..

It always passes though after I tell someone I love to fuck off and blame them..

Here's to not going back to that place again, stay strong my brother. Cheers. (not with booze though. Let's do a vape cheers ;) )
 

KidFated.

Unknown Member
I'm sorry---I'll never be who you want me to be; for the mistakes I've made to hurt you; for shelling up and not communicating when I get stressed; for being such a loner; for being stubborn; for loving too much; my anger; that you can't accept my medicine; that I'm not like everyone else; that I need 'alone time'; that we misunderstand each other too often; for my family; for my lack of real friends; for my knack for embarrassing you; for being me; for having convinced you I would be a good addition to your life; for everything I've ever done to you.
 

Silver420Surfer

Downward spiral
I'm sorry to all the patients in Florida who so desperately were counting on us to get Amendment #2 passed for MMJ. My heart goes out to you all. I don't care what kind of a "positive" spin the campaign tries to put on this, WE FAILED YOU. 58% of the Yes vote still doesn't get you your medicine or ability to choose mj as medicine.
 

grokit

well-worn member
:peace: Apologies in advance for this offensive counterpoint:
:bang: Yeah, without Religion and faith the world as we know it wouldn't exist. It would be a sad fucking world that i would want No part of. :myday:

"If the only thing keeping a person decent is the expectation of divine reward then, brother, that person is a piece of shit. And I’d like to get as many of them out in the open as possible. You gotta get together and tell yourself stories that violate every law of the universe just to get through the goddamn day? What’s that say about your reality?"

~ Rust Cohle
 

DDave

Vape Wizard
Accessory Maker
I'm sorry---I'll never be who you want me to be; for the mistakes I've made to hurt you; for shelling up and not communicating when I get stressed; for being such a loner; for being stubborn; for loving too much; my anger; that you can't accept my medicine; that I'm not like everyone else; that I need 'alone time'; that we misunderstand each other too often; for my family; for my lack of real friends; for my knack for embarrassing you; for being me; for having convinced you I would be a good addition to your life; for everything I've ever done to you.
I'm sorry @KidFated. ... but save for the part about "not accepting the medicine" (as it's kept secret from all but wifey), this could be a chapter from my own book.

I understand.
 

Enchantre

Oil Painter
I am sorry for all the double&triple "liking" of posts. The issue was my mouse. As I require an ergonomic one, I had to wait for my hubby to have time to completely tear it apart.

It was hideous.

It's working again! Hopefully, you won't be getting so many duplicate likes. Sorry.
 

Stu

Maconheiro
Staff member
I am sorry for all the double&triple "liking" of posts. The issue was my mouse. As I require an ergonomic one, I had to wait for my hubby to have time to completely tear it apart.

It was hideous.

It's working again! Hopefully, you won't be getting so many duplicate likes. Sorry.
No matter how many times you like/unlike/like, the member will only get one notification. ;)

:peace:
 
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