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Fuck the Parkinson's, the Dr just gave me a reason to smoke MORE!
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Enchantre
Oil Painter
Well, here we are... in May... and guess who (finally) talked to a reporter about vaping! yup.. six months later - she's on a deadline - she wanted a quick phone interview.
Updates as they occur. Stay tuned. Oh, and vape/vaked/oiled, my dear, dear friends.
Co-worker I've known for four years passed today. Not unexpectedly, but still, every one hurts.
Updates as they occur. Stay tuned. Oh, and vape/vaked/oiled, my dear, dear friends.
Co-worker I've known for four years passed today. Not unexpectedly, but still, every one hurts.
Vicki
Herbal Alchemist
When it rains it pours. I just found out my Mom has breast cancer. I swear the universe is trying to kill me. It wants to see how much it can pile on me before I snap. 
I never really got along with my Mom. I honestly never liked her (despised her quite a bit), but I never want anything bad to happen to her.
I never really got along with my Mom. I honestly never liked her (despised her quite a bit), but I never want anything bad to happen to her.
When it rains it pours. I just found out my Mom has breast cancer. I swear the universe is trying to kill me. It wants to see how much it can pile on me before I snap.
I never really got along with my Mom. I honestly never liked her (despised her quite a bit), but I never want anything bad to happen to her.
@Vicki - my prayers go out to you and your Mom. It's been raining on the both of us for a few weeks, I think it's a test - somebody upstairs is testing us for bigger and better things.
Vicki
Herbal Alchemist
Thanks man. You're not kidding!
VaporsVaporizer
On the Stoop
Sorry about your mom Vicki, doesn't matter whether you liked her or not, Cancer sucks.
Yeah it has been quiet in here, don't know if that's good or bad
I was awarded weekly payments last year by WC-of course the insurance co. filed an appeal
. This is an ongoing case i've had since 2003 when i had to stop working as a Vet Nurse. They have paid all medical pertaining to my case for the last 11 years and and payments on and off depending on if i was working or not. Now i'm totally retired on SSDI (which ain't much -90% goes to rent 
) Anyway appeals go to Albany and that took 14 months, but all 3 judges ruled in my favor and i finally got a BIG FAT FUCKING check the other day 
and my first bi-weekly check yesterday .
So i'm taking my ass to SF and Laguna end of July. SF for a real vacation away from relatives and mandatory Auntie Vapors baby-sitting and where i can just indulge in all the cheaper medical MJ and dabs -then down to see the kids and that new gorgeous baby
I'm thinking about doing the Cup in Nov too, never been there for the Cup and i'll also do another week in London.
There are no pockets in a shroud
Yeah it has been quiet in here, don't know if that's good or bad
I was awarded weekly payments last year by WC-of course the insurance co. filed an appeal
. This is an ongoing case i've had since 2003 when i had to stop working as a Vet Nurse. They have paid all medical pertaining to my case for the last 11 years and and payments on and off depending on if i was working or not. Now i'm totally retired on SSDI (which ain't much -90% goes to rent ) Anyway appeals go to Albany and that took 14 months, but all 3 judges ruled in my favor and i finally got a BIG FAT FUCKING check the other day and my first bi-weekly check yesterday . So i'm taking my ass to SF and Laguna end of July. SF for a real vacation away from relatives and mandatory Auntie Vapors baby-sitting and where i can just indulge in all the cheaper medical MJ and dabs -then down to see the kids and that new gorgeous baby
I'm thinking about doing the Cup in Nov too, never been there for the Cup and i'll also do another week in London.
There are no pockets in a shroud
Vicki
Herbal Alchemist
Here's something beautiful to watch. As depressed as I am, this helps me put things into perspective.
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/iss-hdev-payload
Man, that fucker is flying fast around this planet!
Enchantre
Oil Painter
I feel very badly for you, Vicki.When it rains it pours. I just found out my Mom has breast cancer. I swear the universe is trying to kill me. It wants to see how much it can pile on me before I snap.
I never really got along with my Mom. I honestly never liked her (despised her quite a bit), but I never want anything bad to happen to her.
My (birth) mother, with whom I had very little relationship, had died from chemo (lung cancer) a month before my half-sister notified me.
If nothing else, take what time you can to set anything to rights that you feel you should, and clear out the "unfinished business" from the back of your mind, where they've been gnawing quietly. Feel free to examine them fast & furiously discard them, but it will make things easier when she does (eventually, right?) pass away.
When my step-mom passed, I'd had a chance to pre-deal. It was easier to recover from than from my BM's death, where I had some un-examined junk piled up in the archives.
Naturally, YMMV, and no, it won't work like magic. Unless it does.
*Hugs*
Vicki
Herbal Alchemist
Thanks @Enchantre My mother is 78, and I wonder how well she will tolerate chemo. I'm also worried because I am not well enough to go there to deal with the estate BS. My mother is a Jehovah's Witness, and has not spoken to me in years (except to tell me my Dad died, and I better get there quick if I want say goodbye before she cremates his body) because her religion tells her not to.
She has never been there for me once, no matter what I was going through. I told her what I am going through now, and she changed the subject back to herself. It's hard to be there for someone when they cut you out of their life 20 years ago.
A last visit or two would likely be as much, if not more, for you than for your mom. Not because
it's the 'high ground' but because it's the right thing. Go with an unguarded heart. No more harm
can come to it now. The many year separation was her choice, the final connection is yours. Let it
be peaceful and say your words quietly - then just let it be. That she gave you no support or justification, ever, cannot be changed now. Left alone, your main support, strength, and justification has always come from within. Strange and unfair as it may seem, your mother helped to give you that - a gift that is a blessing that needn't be a curse. This gift connects you with your closest family and friends. In some strange & wonderful way it may have led you here and gifted you to us - we're very grateful and lucky for that. Your worth is immeasurable.
A Toast - To Life!
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Melting Pot
Sick & Twisted
@Vicki sorry to hear about the added stress of you're mothers health on top of you're up and coming surgery. Life is not being nice to quite a few of us in the FC family. Thankfully we were all led to this forum/thread to gain the support needed to keep up the fight.I too lost my mom a little over a year ago it was a tough battle and still is.What ever u decide to do u know the FUCKCOMBUSTION family will have you're back.
And again my prayers go out to u and you're family
And again my prayers go out to u and you're family
Vicki
Herbal Alchemist
Thanks. She's always been a stubborn, mean woman. Hopefully she will apply that to this situation too.
She actually had the audacity to say this to me last night. "Maybe I should have the Society handle my final affairs if I pass away since you are too busy to deal with it."
I swear to god I wanted to jump through the phone and strangle her. Sure, you go ahead and give the Kingdom Hall all your money since you love them so much more than your only daughter.
She actually had the audacity to say this to me last night. "Maybe I should have the Society handle my final affairs if I pass away since you are too busy to deal with it."
I swear to god I wanted to jump through the phone and strangle her. Sure, you go ahead and give the Kingdom Hall all your money since you love them so much more than your only daughter.
@Vicki - so sorry, I didn't mean to come off as preachy. Only you know your situation best and how to deal with it. Having had a very similar relation as you've described I just felt compelled to share my tempered perspective. Please forgive if you felt I trespassed in any way. I pray that no matter what happens that you are happy and contented.
Vicki
Herbal Alchemist
@Vicki - so sorry, I didn't mean to come off as preachy. Only you know your situation best and how to deal with it. Having had a very similar relation as you've described I just felt compelled to share my tempered perspective. Please forgive if you felt I trespassed in any way. I pray that no matter what happens that you are happy and contented.
@Snappo You didn't at all! I am angry with her, not you. It's hard to even talk to the woman. Years of abuse, then years of "I can't talk to you because my religion says I can't," has made me very cold towards her. My husband wants to go off on her, but I won't let him. It serves no purpose, and she will just hang up. You have no reason to apologize. Here's the kicker....she has never once apologized to me, and she even denies years of abuse.
VaporsVaporizer
On the Stoop
Talking about other peoples families is a touchy subject sometimes ,but just do what is the least stressful for you Vicki. You've got a lot of your own stuff to deal with right now.
BarnBoy
Reformed Combustor
@Vicki - my heart feels for you. My daughters are adopted, know it and their birthmother. As of late, this woman comes back into their lives and starts to post on her Facebook of how proud she is of her girls, first to go to college, blah-blah. No mention of the two kids she tried to raise and failed. My daughters are really upset with this woman...
My point here is that the criminally insane do not know there is anything wrong...
-BB
My point here is that the criminally insane do not know there is anything wrong...
-BB
deadheadbill
I can see clearly now the smoke is gone...
EveryDayAmnesiac
Well-Known Member
